C787 Some Things Have Been Stuck in My Heart for a Long Time
Hello, everybody. I love to eat and sleep.1
I haven't had a good chat with the readers on Miegu's platform. I'm sorry, I wanted to post this chapter a long time ago...
Recently, I may not be suitable for writing. I've been feeling down for a long time, like a broken clock. I only do one thing every day, and I don't do anything.
I have some problems, and I haven't adjusted it yet. I seem to be... Depression... Only those who have experienced it would understand!
How could he explain... For example, if a person hesitated for fifteen minutes in front of the elevator, he would know that he should press the button. But in his heart, he didn't want to do that because there was no motivation. At this time, if a neighbor went out, he would quickly press the button. Because he didn't want to be noticed by others.
There was no motivation to eat, no motivation to sleep... but he could force himself to do these things, the symptoms weren't too serious.
I don't know how to come out, so far my family, including myself, don't want to accept my 'illness'.
I have lived alone for a long time. After I completely cut myself off from society, I found that my inspiration is getting lesser and lesser, and the quality of my writing is getting worse and worse. Art comes from life, it's not an empty sentence!
The more sensitive a person is, the easier it is for them to feel the malice of the world. Hopefully, I can get out of this as soon as possible!
After chatting with myself, I started to chat with books.
This is the longest book I have written. I have learned a lot from it, and I have also left behind a lot of regrets. I want to write it well, but I have failed.
The online novel that affected me the most in junior high school should be the God's Tomb. I often read it in computer classes and my blood boiled... Later on, when I started writing novels, my writing style leaned towards "digging holes."
This type of novel had a special characteristic. It needed to dig a new hole to push the plot, and new holes to fill the old holes... If the author did not have any skills, he would easily fill in himself. Coincidentally, I am a newbie...
When I wrote the outline of this book, I only wrote about the Yellow Emperor looking back at me. When I finished writing the storyline of the city, I needed to change the map to the fantasy storyline. At that moment, the storyline collapsed.
Right now, I don't have the energy to build a new world. I've already lost my passion for life. The things I write are painful even for me to look at...
If I want to write a novel with millions of words, I need to have an overall structure of my 'world view'. Constructing a new mythological system (Everyone can find that China's mythological system is rather chaotic), but I did not construct such a complete system. It's still too inexperienced.
Regarding the book, I will make up an ending for it as a farewell!
I don't know if I have the ability to continue writing. Perhaps I should change to a new method of living? Ah... It's a little too late, I should go to sleep.
The river and lake road are far away, we'll meet again if fate permits!
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