70: Troubles of Heart

Troubles of Heart

Linfeng opened his eyes wide. His heart was heavy and painful. He clenched his hand on his chest, afraid that his heart would break. He stood up and went to the bathroom.2

He stared at the mirror dazedly for a while before started washing his face.

He dreamed again.

And every time he dreamed he was crying.

He reached out for a towel and dried his face. His eyes were still red and puffy. He looked like he cried so much in his dreams.

Lately, he'd been dreaming. And his tears would wake him up. He never knew that he was such a cry baby. He wondered, what kind of sad dream he had that he cried for it?

He wants to remember it. But it was like lightning that would flash in his eyes and went gone. The feelings of heartbreak would only remain.

He already consulted with a psychologist before. He was worried that maybe some trauma existed in his mind that he did not know of. And that would be bad if it was not cured in the early stages. Because of his title as an aide, his state of mind should be healthy.

However the psychologist was clueless about it, he was even curious about Linfeng's dreams. The psychologist said that dreams work with the subconscious mind. It would be triggered by strong thoughts such as desires and emotions. The doctor kept asking him if there's a time that he cried so much that he felt broken and helpless. He said no. He did not remember such a day. He was trained since young. His heart was strong. His mind was supposedly strong too.

The doctor just gave him advice to keep his mind relaxed and peaceful. Linfeng asked for sleeping pills as he could not sleep well after he woke up from his dream.

Linfeng went to his balcony and stared at the sky full of stars.

"What is more beautiful? The sight below or the scenery above?"

The image of a girl asking this softly appeared in Linfeng's mind. Below her was the city lights. Above her was the stars.

Her eyes were clear and anticipating for something.

Linfeng's disturbed heart and fuzzy mind slowly dissipating. He let his mind wonder on that day, the day when they held hands, laughed softly to each other, and exchanged keychains.

Linfeng suddenly smiled. He wanted to hold his keychain right now. He returned to his room and reached out to the drawer beside his bed. He took out his keychain and felt their names in the figures.

He remembered how Xiong Zhi inexplicitly gave this keychain to him and ran away. Like a puppy that done something naughty. She was really cute. Linfeng did not notice that he was smiling so much that his white teeth was shown.

Linfeng's thoughts were full of Xiong Zhi. Her beautiful image in white blue hanfu came to his mind. Her beautiful fingers plucking the guzheng. How she tilted her head and swayed with the music made her look so adorable. How she smiled at him..and how she hugged him...

Then he smiles faltered.

He saw how she broke into crying. How she clutched into his robes. Like he was the only saving straw she has.

'And it all began when she met that Guan guy.'

Remembering Guan Gao Huan, Linfeng knew he would never like the man.

He stared back at the keychain again.

'What makes her lose her composure? Did they meet before? Why the young Miss wants to avoid that guy?'

Linfeng felt that Xiong Zhi had a strong impression on that Guan guy.

His mind was troubled again.

After a few hours, he took his phone and dialed a number. He kept dialing the number until the other picked it up.

"For the beauties' sake Linfeng, do you know what time is it?" Jang Shin said irritably.

"It is f@#ckng 3 am!" Jang Shin said through gritted teeth with his eyes closed.

"I know. I have a watch here." Linfeng answered not sounding sorry at all.

"What did I commit in my past life that I have a friend like you?" Jang Shin said with extreme sadness. This man doesn't appreciate him yet he (Jang Shin) treated him (Linfeng) with kindness.

"I need you to investigate on someone." Linfeng directly said.

"Sh#t! Can it wait later?! When everyone is awake! I thought you are f@#ckng dying!" Then Jang Shin sigh. He felt like crying.

"I can't wait for later. I tried. But in the end, I still called you." Linfeng was saying the truth. He tried to wait and sleep. And assigned this task to Jang Shin tomorrow. But he can't sleep and he needed something to do so that his mind would relax and he would feel better.

"....." Jang Shin does not want to rebutt anymore.

"Who? Am I doing a full investigation for that?"

"Yes. Use every resources. I want to know everything in that Guan second heir. Guan Gao Huan."

"A Guan?! That's impossible!"

"Use SC."

"Still. We are just starting. We need good reputation right now and to not be mixed up with bigger parties. Linfeng, I don't know why you want to investigate this guy. We keep a tab on him before but he discovered us. Yet he just let it go. It means his defenses are great. SC cannot take him now."

Linfeng massaged his forehead. His head was hurting as he also knew these things. SC company was like an ant to Guan Empire. If they got this big empire as their enemy they will be smash easily and be destroyed in one day.

It would be difficult to investigate this guy.

"I know of course. It's just..like.." 'I need to do something.'

"Linfeng. You said before that we must be careful and cautious in every move we make . That we should not let the other big empires out there be alerted. Especially the circles of Old Xiong."

' I know. I know that of course. I know that is the right thing to do. But... I need to know. I need to know their connections. Why Xiong Zhi act that way? Why she was afraid of him? And how..can I protect her?'

Yes. Something inside of him was screaming to protect her. Not let her wander away from him.

Funny. He thought. He just met the Young Miss a couple of months ago. But now he had this feeling of protectiveness for her.

It was not right for his aspirations. Yet perfect for his job as an aide. He laughed bitterly. What a conflict.

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