81: Book of Confession

Book of Confession

"What are you running for?" "Why don't you run now? Run..." He grabbed my hair and yelled in my ear," Luo Bei, why do n' t we all die together? Anyway, I don't want to live anymore. Why do n' t we just die? How about it?" 1

The pain on my head made my entire body tense. At this moment, I was more awake than ever. He was indeed crazy and hopeless.

I was tearing it apart. I couldn't die here even if I tore off all the flowers. When he saw that I did n' t give up and sat on my back angrily, I fell on the ground and couldn't move.

"Didn't you want something? I'll give it to you. Why are you running away? "Don't tell me you do n' t want it?"

I grabbed the dirt on the ground and waved at him. Liu Yuan used my clothes to block my face and stood up to wipe my eyes. I hurriedly got up and stumbled forward. I only heard a gunshot from behind me. I was stunned in place. The bullet hit my feet and raised a cloud of dust.

"You should keep running. Luo Bei, aren't you quite able to run?" Liu Yuan shouted behind me. I was trembling and didn't dare to move. I could only feel Liu Yuan footsteps approaching me. My heart began to despair. He hated me and wished he could cut me into pieces. I actually believed that he would tell my aunt where the things were.

Bang...

I squatted down in fear and hugged my head. The gunshot just now was right in my ear.

"Get up." I was stunned when I heard a voice beside my ear. I raised my head and saw Gao Yinan standing in front of me. I wasn't dead. He came to save me. What happened to the gunshot just now?

I slowly got up and was just about to speak, but the grievance in my heart made me almost collapse.

"Are you an idiot?" Liu Yuan You believe me too."

When this was said, all the frustration and grievance in my heart exploded out and I started crying.

I cried like this, making him speechless. He dragged me back.

"Gao Yinan, I want to die with you." There was a roar from behind. I turned around in shock and saw Liu Yuan get up from the ground. His shoulder was bleeding and the gun in his hand was pointing at the Gao Yinan. My entire body shook and I immediately blocked in front of Gao Yinan. My eyes were full of Gao Yinan as I raised my hand and fired the gun.

I opened my arms and waited for death to arrive. I collapsed weakly and the world instantly became extremely quiet.

Beep... Beep... Beep

When I opened my eyes, there was only a regular beep in my ear. It was white all around. I took a breath and the smell of the disinfectant was very strong.

"I'm awake, Sis." When she saw that I woke up, she quickly turned her head and stared at my face. I stared blankly at her. I wasn't dead.

"Am I still alive?" I asked in a low voice.

"Of course I'm still alive. It's the first time I've seen someone who fainted from fright for two days and two nights without waking up."

It was Gao Yinan voice. I sat up and stared at the Gao Yinan leaning against the sofa. When I saw the blanket on his body, my heart skipped a beat. Did he fall asleep here? I clearly saw Liu Yuan shooting at us. Why didn't I die?

I looked at Quiet in astonishment. "Did I faint from fear?"

She nodded quietly." The police sent you back to the hospital. Sister really fainted."

I tightened the blanket and asked curiously," What about Liu Yuan?"

"You said the person who took you away? "He's already dead. Sister, do n' t worry."

Liu Yuan was dead? How could it be like this? My hands that were holding onto the blanket with lowered eyes trembled. In the end, Liu Yuan was still dead. Could Liu Yuan's death end this matter?

"I clearly saw it ……"

"He committed suicide. Liu Yuan parents have already taken his body back." Gao Yinan spoke. This news made my nerves tighten. I didn't know what had happened at that time. I just saw Liu Yuan was about to shoot Gao Yinan, so I stood in front of Gao Yinan. When I heard the gunshot, I could n' t remember anything.

At this moment, a few policemen walked in and heaved a sigh of relief when they saw me wake up.

"Are you awake?" "If there's nothing serious, can I ask Sister Luo to make a statement with us?" I glanced at Gao Yinan nodded and sat next to them.

I gave a rough account of what happened that day.

"Alright, let's do this. Thank Miss Luo for your cooperation. By the way, we found a letter on Liu Yuan body when we were sorting out his body. It was for Miss Luo." The policeman handed a blood-stained letter to me.

Liu Yuan had written the letter to me in advance, but why didn't he give it to me? Why did he want to fight me to the death? I held the letter tightly and stared at the handwriting in a daze.

"Xiao Bei, I'm afraid this is the last time I' ve called you that. Actually, I know that everything I did to you is not worth your forgiveness. I don't have the right to ask for your forgiveness. In prison, I felt like I was dying, but it made me understand something. I also knew that you would never see these things. Perhaps it was too idle. Just like when I was in college, I had a lot of time to spend. The more I thought about it, the more I thought about it. Just like how I thought about you back then, I wanted to give you love letters and write them again and again. He wrote one after another, but no matter what, he couldn't find the way he felt back then. This was what I owed you.

I knew better than anyone how much harm Bai Jing An had done to you when I was with her, but I thought that Bai Jing An could bring me more. Leaving you behind was the most shameless and cowardly thing I had ever done in my life.

These feelings were my confession. Perhaps I wanted to get God's salvation and repent of my sins again and again. I asked God to forgive me.

You came to me that day and wanted to ask about the box that my aunt left for you. I told you that Bai Jing-an had taken it away. Actually, the box had always been with me. I don't know why I insisted on leaving your things behind. Was it because I could n' t let you go? I've done so many things to you, so I' m not worthy of keeping your things.

I was afraid. I was afraid to see those things, and I was even more afraid to see you. So, I buried all the things that were related to you under the huge locust tree on the university campus, just like you told me back then, burying all the unhappy things.

I thought that as long as I did that, everything would return to normal and I would be able to face my life calmly. However, everything was not as I thought... You hate me, your hatred for me has never stopped...

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