147: Chapter 147

Chapter 147

"An Qingze, you really disappoint me. If I knew you didn't trust me, we might as well not get married." I said disappointedly. I saw the hurt in An Qingze eyes, but now that I'm in great pain, I ca n' t care about his feelings anymore. 0

An Qingze gave up and dropped his hand." Good, good disappointment. How could I not be disappointed in you?" Didn't you think that I would n' t feel bad if I didn't say anything? Did I really heal all my wounds? "Ke'er, do n' t you really think you're cruel?"

Then, he looked up at Little Yue Ya'er's room upstairs and said to me," Even if I don't care about my feelings, even if I can pretend that nothing happened, even if I really think of myself as a numb machine and only know how to follow your footsteps, there's no way I don't care about Little Yue Ya' er!

Qin Yue wasn't your biological child, so it did n' t matter to you? So, as soon as Qi Mu mentioned your biological child, your heart would soften and you would waver? Didn't the scales in your heart immediately fall? "Do you dare to touch your conscience and say that you love the little crescent moon more than that child?"

I couldn't take it anymore. I covered my ears and ran away with my tears. I could n' t control myself and screamed at An Qingze," Stop talking, An Qingze! Why did he always remind me of that child? Why? Qi Mu Forget about him. He was trying to provoke me. What about you? An Qingze, why did you mention him? I was about to forget about it. Why did you always tell me to remember it better?

I knew I would never have another child in my life. An Qingze do you mind? Do you actually want a child of your own? Who didn't care about the little crescent moon? Ask yourself, did you dislike the little crescent moon because you wanted your child? "If that's the case, the child belongs to me alone. You can leave now. So what if you get the certificate? It does n' t matter if you get married. You can even get divorced!"

I didn't know what to say anymore. Anger and sadness filled my mind. My headache was as terrifying as if it was about to split open. I was surrounded by such terror and did n' t know what to say or do. All I knew was that I had to say it. If I didn't say it, I would die! I was about to explode!

Everyone was forcing me, and every memory was reminding me that if they didn't forgive me, I would n' t let them go! At worst, they would die and die together with the past.

"Daddy, Mommy, what are you arguing about?"

The baby voice and Nuo Nuo sounded at the entrance of the stairs. An Qingze and I stopped at the same time, and the living room became silent.

We looked at each other and saw fear and regret in each other's eyes. Then, we looked at Little Yue Ya' er. The child's face was blank, but his big eyes were clearly filled with tears and fear.

"Crescent Moon, come here." When I said that, I realized that my voice was hoarse.

The little Qin Yue paused for a moment and hesitated for two seconds before slowly walking over. I glanced at An Qingze and saw the same worry in his eyes. We were arguing too much about me. We were only focused on venting our fear and uneasiness and abandoning and resisting the past. We didn't even notice when the child came down the stairs. How long had she been standing there? What did she hear?

Although Yue Yue'er was just a child and was n' t as sensible as Qi Mo, what we said wasn't hard to understand. Our voice was so loud. I think she should understand everything.

An Qingze also nervously pulled Little Yue Ya'er's hand and asked with a frown," Why did Yue Ya'er suddenly come downstairs? Did n' t Mommy tell Little Yue Ya'er that she was playing in the room?"

Yue Yue Er blinked her large eyes and looked at An Qingze with tears in her eyes. She turned to look at me and said in a muffled voice," I know. Because Mommy and Daddy quarreled so loudly, Little Yue Ya Er felt scared and came down."

When I saw that Yue Yue'er did n' t ask her whether she was his biological daughter or not, I let out a sigh of relief in my heart. Then, I gently said to her," Alright, Yue Yue'er, go and play. Mommy and Daddy have something to discuss."

Yueyue suddenly came over and hugged me. Then, she said in a muffled voice," Don't quarrel, Mom and Dad. Yueyue is really afraid." When she was in kindergarten today, there was a little girl called Xiao Qi. Everyone laughed at her lack of a father. I just asked her why she didn't have a father. She said that her father and mother always quarreled at home. After quarreling, her father went out and never returned.

Mommy, don't argue with Daddy, okay? "I don't want to have a father or a mother. Little Yue Ya' er wants to live with her."

When I heard my daughter's request, my heart ached. I could only hold back my tears and tears as I said with a gentle smile," I wo n' t. I promise that I won't fight in the future. The crescent moon will go up first. Mommy and Daddy really have something to discuss."

Crescent Moon nodded obediently and slowly went upstairs. I watched as the crescent moon disappeared at the end of the corridor. When I heard the door close, I relaxed and sat down weakly on the sofa.

An Qingze also sighed beside him. After a while, she heard him whisper," I'm sorry, Ke' er. I just said something very excessive."

I smiled bitterly. The corners of my mouth twitched as I felt powerless." An Qingze, it's not your fault. You' re right. It's because I' m too selfish. I've never cared about your feelings since before. It's because I should say sorry."

An Qingze leaned over and reached out to hug me, but I subconsciously dodged. An Qingze froze and smiled stiffly. After a few seconds, he said," Are we really done?"

When I saw his despairing gaze, my heart ached again. I sighed and said," No, it's not over. We' re just fighting." How could a couple not quarrel? "If every couple broke up and divorced after a quarrel, there would be no elderly person in the world."

An Qingze looked at me calmly and said," I'm sorry, I' m just afraid I'll lose you." The moment I saw Qi Mu, I had already lost my rationality. I was jealous of him. I was jealous that he had gotten your love back then and had taken away your heart. That was why my jealousy made my heart ache as long as I saw your gaze fall on him. "Sorry, Ke'er, I' m too narrow-minded. I should trust you more."

This time, I didn't reject An Qingze embrace. He told me that he was sorry. In fact, was n' t it because I didn't choose my words? To put it another way, if it was me, I would also be nervous if someone I loved met his past lover. Therefore, I could understand An Qingze I should be happy for An Qingze care about me.

pqdm.com