Chapter 166. Things are human.
After I said that nervously, An Qingze was silent for a long time. My fingers were tangled together. If it was a few more seconds, I would have wanted to admit it to An Qingze immediately. 2
Fortunately, An Qingze said," Alright, I understand. "Be careful. I'll pick you up at the airport tomorrow."
I nodded and said a few more words. Seeing that Qi Mu was coming over, I quickly hung up. He felt guilty and guilty about An Qingze. After returning to England, it would be better for me to admit it to him.
Although I knew that from now on, Qi Mo existence must be a thorn in An Qingze's heart, but if I did n' t say something, I was even more afraid that one day, when it was exposed, it would be out of control.
"What about reporting the itinerary to my husband?" Qi Mu smiled mockingly.
I gave a soft nod, then turned around and leaned against the balcony, looking at the rows of lights in the upper echelons outside the window.
After a long time, I turned my head and Qi Mu leaned against me. I looked at the other side without moving, as if I had come to my senses.
"Sometimes I wonder if our lives and experiences would be completely different if we were just two ordinary workers?" Qi Mu didn't look at me. She stared at him and sighed.
Perhaps it was rare to see such a quiet Qi Mu. There was not the slightest bit of hostility on my body. There was an unconcealed confusion and gentleness in my eyes. My heart also involuntarily softened.
"It's a pity that we are n' t either. We aren't ordinary office workers, and we do n' t live in an ordinary neighborhood where so many people are crowded in a building. "Perhaps what you don't understand is that even in a neighborhood like this, you ca n' t afford to live in."
I pursed my lips. Back then, when Bai an and I were still working everywhere and living in order to earn a little more money, the high-end community opposite Family Qi villa was simply something we couldn't afford. Time and fate were really subtle and liked to tease people. In the end, things were right and wrong.
During my years in England, Bai an had also called to contact him. He had also come to England on a business trip. An Qingze and I had invited him to dinner. Bai an even laughed. Back then, he had wanted to pursue me, but my past had An Qingze and back then, there were also Qi Mu. All of them were filled up and left to him. Perhaps only his identity as a friend would not be awkward, and it was just right.
Later on, fate made a wonderful arrangement Bai an met a woman that she really fell in love with. Bai an told me that that girl was very beautiful and had a lot of personality. However, some bad things had happened in the past, and they had experienced very sad experiences, so they could not open their hearts.
After all these years, Bai an had been silently fond of that girl. It was said that the girl had a little stubborn first love in her heart. However, over the years, Bai an had been doing better and better at the company. He had also sat down as the second-in-command and had also lived in a high-end neighborhood.
Our lives seemed to be better, but it was inevitable that we would never be connected again. And these experiences were all Qi Mu impossible and would never be experienced.
"What are you looking at?" Qi Mu said.
I curled my lips and said," It's nothing. Look at ordinary life."
From the corner of my eyes, Qi Mu kept looking at me, but at this moment, my heart was still very calm.
"Qi Mu, actually, there wasn't so much right or wrong between us. I' ve been thinking all these years that if I didn't use you so impulsively back then, I would take the initiative to approach you. Perhaps we wouldn't be able to reach this point.
At that time, it was indeed my fault. I was too impulsive and too young. I was too confident in myself. I thought I could do it, or even easily. I thought that whatever I did to you would succeed in retaliating against Family Lin and Family Qi. But today, I realized that a peaceful life was the best choice.
The people in the shopping mall were scheming against each other. Hello, I'm not good. The survival of the fittest is just normal. However, when I was in school, I couldn't accept these things. I thought it was a despicable thing, so I had to talk about revenge.
But now that I've put it down, I think I should have put it down. Qi Mu, I won't take Qi Mo away. He's my son, but he's also your son. There was no other possibility between us. I don't know what kind of attitude and thoughts you have towards me, but no matter what, I' m already married to An Qingze.
Let's just forget about the matter between us, okay? I don't hate you, so do n' t blame me. I have a crescent moon, you have a Qi Mo, and we each have a family. How about the future? I will come to see Qi Mo. I hope you won't stop me, okay?"
Qi Mu frowned slightly. I didn't know if it was my illusion, but I felt a faint sadness across his face.
"Don't stop you?" They had a family and a future? Qin Ke What if I say that I don't have a family and I have you in my future?" Qin Ke looked at me and the cold wind gently brushed past my neck. However, I felt my heart tremble violently. The burning in my soul made me unable to determine my goal and future.
Qi Mu future, there was me in it? I don't want to pretend that I ca n' t understand this. I don't want to pretend that I did n' t think too much. But my conscience and bottom line were also telling me that I could not think too much, nor should I think too much, nor should I understand.
I'm An Qingze wife, and we' re already married. These words are floating in my mind, constantly slapping my soul. But the starlight in Qi Mu eyes hurt my heart. Everything An Qingze was slowly being diluted in my heart.
"You can't have me or me in your future." I looked at Qi Mu and said word by word.
I looked at the disappointment in Qi Mu eyes. Everything was right and wrong. This situation had already happened between us, and I had long lost the right and necessity to enjoy this joy.
Suddenly, I realized that I had once said this to An Qingze, but now I had used it to say it to Qi Mu. It really was good fortune that made people. There was always less fate between us. Fate had never been reasonable.
I didn't stay on the balcony. Instead, I went into my room to accompany Qi Mo. The only reason I stayed today was because of Qi Mo.
Qi Mo was held in my arms and asked in a low voice," Mommy, are you leaving tomorrow?"
My heart ached, but I could only say," Yeah, I'm going back tomorrow."
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