175: Chapter 175 I regret it

Chapter 175 I regret it

My tears finally fell uncontrollably. When I hugged Qi Mo, I hadn't cried for a long time. I even thought that I wouldn't cry about Qi Mu. But it turned out that I only left all my weakness and helplessness to An Qingze. 0

"An Qingze, I feel bad." I whispered.

"I know." An Qingze replied.

"I'm sorry, I do n' t care if you're angry or not anymore. I feel bad. The place in my heart is especially bad. I knew we would n' t be together. I really didn't plan on having anything to do with Qi Mu. However, I always thought that Qi Mu would always be there. I thought he was fine. We were fine too. Qi Mo were fine too. It was fine just like that.

How could fate torture people like this? Why did Qi Mu want to die? Why was there such an accident? Why couldn't Qi Mu be fine? I never thought that Qi Mu would disappear one day? When Qi Mu died, I suddenly felt that the world was empty. An Qingze, I felt terrible. I really felt terrible. "I really regret it. At that time, I was too young. It was because I was too childish and impulsive. If I didn't get close to Qi Mu and if I did n' t just want revenge, neither of us would have experienced this."

I covered my chest and closed my eyes. An Qingze my temperature would give me a moment of peace of mind. He was the only person I could rely on right now. If I didn't An Qingze by my side now, I really did n' t know how long I could last, or if I could last.

The coldness in her tears was telling me that Qi Mu really wasn't here anymore. I loved someone for so long and hated someone for so long. He no longer existed. Whether it was love or hate, it was impossible in the future. Everything was meaningless.

The next morning, once the news was confirmed, the Qi family's Second Master Qi Mu that his life was unknown. Their plane had fallen into the sea and had not been recovered yet, but the chances of survival were almost zero.

I woke up in An Qingze's arms this morning. When I came together, I immediately went to Qi Mo room. As soon as I left, I saw Qi Mo sitting beside the table, lost in thought.

I took a deep breath and adjusted my mood and expression before walking over. I put my hand on Qi Mo shoulder and said," Xiao Mo, why did you get up early in the morning? "I slept so late yesterday. Did you think you were going to sleep late?"

Qi Mo didn't raise his head. His eyes, which were very similar to Qi Mu's, were clearly extinguished. He just said indifferently," Mommy, are you going to kindergarten?"

I was stunned for a moment. Then, I said with a gentle smile," No need. I'll take your leave today. I' ll send Yueya to kindergarten later. You can rest at home today."

Qi Mo did not nod and did not object. Just as I opened my mouth to comfort him, Yueyue came downstairs in a daze. I could only hold back my words and wash up and eat with her.

When she left, Yueyue asked me," Why didn't Brother Qi Mo go to kindergarten?"

The corners of my mouth twitched in embarrassment. I could only say," Brother Qi Mo, there's something going on today. Crescent Moon is good. I' m going to be late."

Fortunately, Yueyue didn't know how to ask, so she obediently followed me out. After sending the crescent moon into the kindergarten gate, I was still sitting in the car. It had been a long time since I thought of starting the car and leaving.

From afar, he could see the location of the main entrance. It seemed that Qi Mu would still stand there. He would occasionally turn around to look at me, with a faint smile that seemed to be indifferent to everything.

I remembered his sorrowful gaze, the dimness and disappointment in his starry eyes. He asked me, could we really not go back? My heart began to ache inch by inch. Qi Mu was a poison, and I would never have the antidote.

I was lying on the steering wheel. Qi Mu, this time, we really can't go back. I can't even see your people anymore. No matter what we've experienced before, I hope you live well. Perhaps the thing I regret the most is that I did n' t admit that I still love you.

Just like that, at the entrance of the kindergarten, I was in the car, lying on the steering wheel, tears falling uncontrollably. I cried so hard that I couldn't help but wish I could see Qi Mu figure again when I raised my head. I could see the corners of his proud mouth and the faint smile that was still alive.

Qi Mu, what could it be for you not to die? I couldn't imagine. I did n' t know what I could use to trade fate with a god in the sky. If the memories between us all died out, if we never met, if everything returned to its original state and there was no more ties, would you live well?

When I got home, I saw Qi Mo sitting on the ground alone. He leaned against the sofa with a blank expression. When I approached him, his eyes were red. My heart ached as I hugged Qi Mo tiny body." It's fine. You and Mommy are here. Mommy will always be with you in the future."

Qi Mo didn't say anything. After a long time, I heard him cry softly and patiently, slowly spreading out on my chest.

What could I do? I could only touch his head over and over again, telling him that I was still by his side. I was his mother, and he would only have me in the future, and he would always have me.

After a long time, Qi Mo calmed down. He suddenly raised his head and asked me," Mommy, can you tell me why you're not willing to forgive Daddy?" Dad really missed you. Ever since I remembered, my father had always been alone. He stood on the balcony and smoked late. "I know he's thinking about you because every time Daddy talks about you, he looks like that."

My heart was tightly clenched. I tried my best to make myself laugh, but I really couldn't.

"I've forgiven him. It's just that Xiao Mo's still young. I do n' t know that the so-called forgiveness isn't enough to allow everything to return to its original state."

Qi Mo shook his head." But Mommy, when will I grow up?" Mommy, I really missed you and Daddy and me. But why did my father disappear when I finally found my mother? Mom, you don't have to lie to me, you do n' t have to coax me. I understand the news. I know what it means to be unaccounted for. "Mommy, maybe I've grown up already."

That day, after Qi Mo said everything for a whole day, my heart kept flowing between sourness and sweetness. I didn't know whether I had cured Qi Mo or Qi Mo. I only knew that when An Qingze and Little Yue Ya' er returned home, we were silent at the same time.

I saw strength on Qi Mo face. After that day, I never saw him cry again. It was as if in one night, he had changed from three to thirteen years old.

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