183: Can you give him the future?

Can you give him the future?

I helplessly looked at Lin Anru excited face. I really wanted to agree to her immediately, but I thought of Qi Mo. At that moment, I felt that I should tell Qi Mo that I could not and did not have the right to decide on my own. I wanted my child to think that his father had died long ago. 2

I hesitated and said," Lin Anru, if it's just me, I do n' t mind. I really don't mind. Just like you said, I' ve had a good time with An Qingze. Although I haven't forgotten Qi Mu, even if nothing happened four years ago Qi Mu there was no other possibility between me and him.

Do you still remember what you said to me four years ago? Say, I'm too cruel to Qi Mu. Now, what I want to do is not to be so cruel to Qi Mo and Qi Mu. It didn't matter to me, but Qi Mo did.

During these four years, he had been very unhappy. He no longer grew up like an ordinary child. An Qingze and I had never tried to separate him from this family, but he had never tried to integrate into this family.

Did you know that in that child's heart, he had always been a child of a single parent family. He had even stubbornly refused to change his surname. I didn't know how to persuade him, but I could n' t bear to see him so sad.

To Qi Mo child, his world was complete only if Qi Mu could return. Therefore, for the sake of Qi Mo good, I clearly knew that Qi Mu was still alive. How could I not tell him the truth?"

Lin Anru said excitedly," For Qi Mo good, Qin Ke you can't be so selfish. You' ve always been unfair to Qi Mu. Now, can't you think about it once? He already had a son. My son was Qi Ming Ye his son and his only son.

You just saw that Ming Ye and Qi Mu had a good relationship. The three of us were now living a peaceful and contented life. We didn't need everything from the Qi family to live a good life. But if you had to make Qi Mu remember what happened in the past, and if you had to drag Qi Mo into it again, had you ever thought about it?

Qi Mu his feelings for you back then, he would remember it again. Then, his current calm would be broken. When he remembered the past, it was equivalent to remembering pain. Qin Ke, did you really think about it? Have you figured out how to take responsibility for his pain?

Qin Ke I'll ask you, if Qi Mu remember the past, can you give him the future?"

Lin Anru looked at me with eyes full of flames, but I was completely stunned by her questioning. The future? Yes, I was certain four years ago that there would be no future between me and Qi Mu. I thought of Qi Mu unfamiliar gaze that I had just met, and I searched through my memories four years ago. Qi Mu asked me, could it be that we really couldn't go back to the in our eyes?

I lowered my head and suddenly couldn't face Lin Anru gaze. The condemnation in her eyes made me very miserable. I can't afford Qi Mu future. I really ca n' t afford it! My rationality was constantly convincing me. Wasn't this the best outcome? Let Qi Mu completely forget me and let our past stay in my memory alone. This might really be the best ending.

I couldn't say anything, and I could n' t answer Lin Anru. I really couldn't give Qi Mu future, and I really truly ashamed of Qi Mu past. There were too many people between us, too many right and wrong, and too many regrets and grudges that would definitely disappear.

There was no other way for us to coexist apart from eliminating the fault memories.

"I got it." I heard my voice and answered Lin Anru in a hoarse voice.

Lin Anru let go of my hand, her eyes turned red. I also felt my eyes dry.

"Qin Ke, thank you. I will give Qi Mu happiness." Lin Anru said to me.

I suddenly remembered that I had said this to Su Mei back then. I said that I would give An Qingze happiness. My tears fell.

When I saw Qi Mu bring the crescent moon and Qi Ming Ye over, my heart was swollen and sour. I raised my head and smiled at Qi Mu. I said," Lin Anru and I are good friends, but I didn't recognize you before."

Although Qi Mu didn't have any memories, it was still cold and did n' t change his temperament. He did not say anything. I was deeply greedy. Finally, I took a look at those eyes. They were like stars, deep and containing light. My heart was so sour that it was a mess. I couldn't even pretend to say goodbye to Lin Anru. I pulled the crescent moon and immediately turned around.

Step by step, I moved away from the world behind me, and my tears fell down. I told myself over and over again that Qi Mu wasn't dead and he was still alive. Was n' t this a good thing? But I still couldn't convince myself not to grieve, to despair, or to be sad.

Yes, he wasn't dead, but I was already dead in his world.

At night, An Qingze hugged me. His kiss landed heavily and densely on my body. From top to bottom, flames rose layer by layer.

In the extreme of happiness, I closed my eyes and tears fell on him. An Qingze turned on the light in surprise and asked me what was wrong.

However, my tears couldn't hide anymore. When I brought the crescent moon home, I did n' t even dare to look at the little figure who was still sitting on the sofa.

I clearly knew where the key to hope to awaken Qi Mo was, but for my own peace, I forced myself not to tell him. I'm sorry Qi Mo I did n' t raise him in the past, but now I can't protect him.

"An Qingze, let's have another child." I was crying and there was a strong dampness in the night.

An Qingze sigh came out of the depths of his throat.

"You're not... Before An Qingze could finish, I knew what he wanted to say. I tried my best to make myself laugh," It's alright. We can try again. What if we succeed?"

I didn't know what I was thinking, but what I said turned into this. I wanted a child, but I should be making up for Qi Mo. Guilt and complicated entanglement turned into a form of escape and extravagant hope.

I want a child, and An Qingze child, a child that belongs to a new life. Perhaps, I just wanted to completely escape this reality. I wanted to find a secret method that was no longer painful.

"We will have a child." An Qingze voice was buried in my body and penetrated my soul.

I ordered me to stop thinking about anything. We would have a child and we could start our lives again. Even if we were no longer young, we still had a lot of time. We could choose again, and we had the opportunity and qualification to be happy again.

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