200: Chapter 200 Because I don't love him

Chapter 200 Because I don't love him

I looked at An Qingze helplessly. Other than sighing, I really didn't know how to react. Perhaps he was right. When he faced the estrangement and betrayal between us in such pain, my heart felt so calm and relaxed. 1

The truth that I couldn't admit was just in front of me. I knew that An Qingze was right. I could deal with this matter so easily. I was so hasty and unwilling to help him and Su Mei. Perhaps it was because I didn't love him.

"I'm sorry, do you want me to tell you that I' m sorry?" I chuckled. I'm already empty. I do n' t have the strength to hide and act against him anymore.

An Qingze looked at me with a look of disbelief and horror for a long time. Just when I thought that he would even leave home, he sat on the sofa dejectedly. It was as if he was dead. It was as if he had lost all his life force in that second.

"An Qingze, forget it." I sighed tiredly.

He was tired, and so was I. There was no such thing as fairness or unfairness on this road. It was just a coincidence or fate.

"We've worked very hard, but we' ve managed to reach today. What else can I say?" I said dejectedly.

An Qingze raised his head. His face was haggard, but his eyes were bright." Can you forgive me?"

I stared blankly at An Qingze and suddenly felt that this was a funny moment. I had never thought of this before. An Qingze was an out-of-the-way husband, and I was the helpless wife. I was waiting for the person I loved to turn around and didn't cross mountains and rivers. But did I also learn to forgive for this?

I felt like it was in vain, but I also felt that it was very sad. All of our efforts were originally for love and love to be deeper, but now, such a crack existed between us. I've had Qi Mu, and he's had Su Mei. How could we possibly fuse together again?

"Let's forget about it, okay?" I couldn't even hold back my tears.

"I feel bad. I really feel bad. I felt very uncomfortable and didn't care as much as you said. But An Qingze, I really didn't want us to go this far. I don't want us to have to suffer and struggle for such a thing. "Do we really need to become like this?"

I looked at An Qingze. I didn't want to lie to him. I was telling the truth. Originally, I had made up my mind to live a solid life with him. But now, it was too late to say anything. Everything was over. I felt that I had lost the meaning and purpose of being persistent.

An Qingze his eyes were so red that they were scary, and the emotions in his eyes were so deep that they were scary. He suddenly chuckled," Are you sad?" Why do I think you're so relaxed? Did you finally find a reason to leave me? Did you find an excuse to leave me easily?

Between you and Qi Mu, do you really think I don't exist? Do you think I do n' t care at all? You looked like an injured person, as if I had abandoned my marriage. Are you not selfish? Are you not arrogant? "In the end, you just don't love me, that's all."

I sat there quietly listening to An Qingze responsibilities. I heard how this man, who I had planned to spend his entire life together, had put his responsibility for cheating on me. There was only one reason why I didn't refute, because I did n' t love him. I couldn't refute that. And this seemed to have become the root of our culpability.

I suddenly thought of Qi Mu. A few hours ago, I thought that the person who had lost the entire world was him, just him. But now, in reality, I was the one who lost everything. Without love, there was also no stability that I thought could be used as a backup.

Like Qi Mu, there was no way out. I didn't know if he could forget it. Anyway, my heart felt uncomfortable and empty.

At night, I thought An Qingze wouldn't come back. I was still thinking about how to explain to Crescent Moon, but An Qingze came back.

He chatted and laughed with Yueyue as usual. When I was eating, I looked at An Qingze awkwardly. Was he planning to pretend that nothing had happened? If he could really do it, I couldn't. As long as I sat across from the An Qingze, I would have thought of the disgusting and passionate scene Su Mei sitting on An Qingze thigh when they kissed each other.

After Yueyue went to bed, I pulled on the An Qingze with an ashen face that was preparing to return to the next room." What do you plan to do?"

An Qingze turned around to look at me and decided to leave without saying anything. I tugged at him and said," Can we talk? I don't want to drag it along."

An Qingze stopped in his tracks, then turned around and dragged me into the room. His back foot hooked and the door slammed shut behind us.

"An Qingze, what are you doing? Stop fooling around!" I tried my best to push him away, but I could feel An Qingze heavy breath of lust on my face.

My face was hot, but An Qingze didn't care about my resistance at all. There was anger in my eyes as I kissed her angrily.

"An Qingze, don't do this!" I closed my eyes and struggled desperately, but my strength was nothing but Hong Mao in front of An Qingze.

"Tell me, what's the reason why you refused to even kiss me? Do you have any intentions? You haven't even loved me in the slightest after all these years? "I've been in your pitiful heart for seven years?"

An Qingze growled. I could feel the fury in his voice. I don't want to, but I ca n' t sleep with An Qingze at this time! An Qingze kiss landed on my body, like a knife dyed in flames. One knife after another, it struck my soul. My mind was filled with Su Mei sitting on his leg and dodging Qi Mu sad back. I stood at the school entrance without saying a word.

My heart ached. I couldn't stop An Qingze movements, nor could I stop my tears from falling.

To my surprise, An Qingze's movements also stopped.

"Why are you crying?" After a long time, his voice was faintly filled with a sense of loss and pain.

When I opened my eyes, my eyes were misty.

"Let's not do this, okay?" An Qingze, we shouldn't be like this, we should n' t be like this! "At least you shouldn't be like this."

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