279: Chapter 279 I won't be with you

Chapter 279 I won't be with you

Qi Mu smiled bitterly." If I were to say, those women were just like the actors I hired to play a good show. "And I didn't touch them at all. Do you believe me?" 2

Do you believe me? His voice hit my soul. I suddenly understood something from Qi Mu eyes. I nodded and said," I believe it."

Qi Mu kiss landed lightly on my forehead. This kiss seemed holy.

"Actually, I just feel inferior. I just don't feel confident about myself. Ever since I was young, I had always thought that there was nothing I couldn't get, but your appearance was an accident. "Perhaps it's been too late to say it now, but when I first saw you, I thought I' d never let you leave."

I stared blankly at Qi Mu, unable to react for a moment. Back then, it was me who drugged Qi Mu and the first time I designed us. And I had always thought that Qi Mu was with me because I wanted to be responsible. At that time, the woman beside him should have been the Lin Anru and Family Lin young miss.

As for the past, it was the main reason why I felt guilty and uneasy about Lin Anru and Family Lin.

Qi Mu smiled. A river bed flowed gently in my eyes. At this moment, the light in my Qi Mu and eyes was as dazzling as the stars. My heart started beating uncontrollably. It had been a long time since I had experienced what it felt. He really couldn't lie to himself.

"So, when it happened for the first time, I didn't tell you how happy I was. I said I would take responsibility, and I said I would marry you. Actually, I do n' t care if you've designed me. As long as you're still willing to design me or to put your mind on me, that means that you still want me that much. "That's what I thought back then. It's really ridiculous now."

Qi Mu said it as if it was a breeze, but I couldn't say a word. I just looked at him calmly, at his slightly shiny gaze, and at his young white neck.

However, Qi Mu's gaze darkened." But now, you' re not even willing to treat me, right? I've thought about it many times, so why do n' t you just forget about it? Just give it up, or just make do with it.

But I couldn't do it. I do n' t know how you did it. You did it so easily. Have you ever thought about it? After you left, the person by my side would no longer be you. To you, such a thing might be very adaptable.

"But to me, as long as I think that the person next to you is no longer me and is An Qingze, I wish that this heart never existed."

Qi Mu grabbed my hand and placed it on his chest. His voice was slightly hoarse because it hadn't recovered yet, but it made my heart ache and heart ache.

"Don't you feel pain?" He asked me.

My tears streaked across the air and fell on his fingertips. There was no one around and it was quiet. Only, the moonlight added a bit of haze and comfort to all the tranquility.

I raised my head and took a deep breath. Then, I looked at him and said," Qi Mu, we are no longer children. We are no longer young. I have a responsibility, do you know? Xiao Mo and crescent moon were the most important people in my life. An Qingze, he was my husband, not the air. He was not someone that could be ignored casually.

Even if I admit it, I miss you a lot. I can't forget you. I' m also suffering and heartache. However, what I couldn't do was right in front of my eyes. I could n' t ignore An Qingze feelings. He was a living person, not an excuse we missed and a tool to separate conflicts.

Forget it, everything had passed. There were many things that couldn't be turned back once they passed. Li Wenting, she was a good woman. She had loved you silently for so many years. Besides, she had your child in her stomach. The arrival of that child was destined.

Qi Mu, she was someone who could die for you. She didn't care about the consequences like Lin Anru did. She just wanted to take possession. In one's life, one would never encounter such a person. So you ……"

Before I could finish, Qi Mu interrupted me," So, is this the kind of person An Qingze to you?" His gaze was like a torch.

My heart was shaken, but on my face, I deliberately smiled a little more relaxed." Yes, that's why we should all cherish them."

Qi Mu expression darkened." What if I say that I don't want to cherish it?" "What if I just don't want to make do?"

I stared blankly at his darkened face and felt the surrounding air turn white and cold.

"Don't be so unreasonable, okay?" I was a little annoyed. It was originally a good atmosphere, but Qi Mu had a cold face again. For some reason, he felt like Qi Mu was becoming more and more like a child. It didn't matter what the occasion was. He seemed to wish that I could join him and ignore the thoughts, attitudes, and perspectives of all the others. He only cared about what he wanted to do happily.

"Qin Ke, so you're not such a person. Why do n' t I understand? Why do you have more and more things to worry about?" "More and more people have to care about their opinions?" Qi Mu frowned.

I was so angry that I burst out laughing." Nonsense, so it's the same. Of course I' m not the same me. Have I wasted all these years?" I can't be the same now. That's not right. "Do you know how many people we've hurt because we' ve only focused on what we think?"

Just An Qingze alone had injured him countless times.

Qi Mu stopped, and the surroundings were quiet, as if they could hear each other's breathing. I sighed, not knowing how long this silence would last.

"So, you care about so many people, but you never care about me, right?" Qi Mu said.

I raised my head to look at him and Qi Mu eyes turned red." Then what about my thoughts, my position, and my sadness? Isn't that important?"

I opened my mouth and found that I could not answer him.

Qi Mu grabbed my shoulder and approached my face. His eyes were fixed on my eyes as if he was trying to grab my soul.

"Do you still have me in your heart? "Even if it's just a little bit?"

I pursed my lips and tears were about to come back. I moved my shoulders and didn't break free. I felt that I had taken it personally, but this question was not difficult to answer.

"Yes, it's not just a little, it's a lot." I said.

I didn't want to lie to him. When Qi Mu eyes lit up, I continued," However, I wo n' t be with you and betray An Qingze."

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