366: Chapter 366 Because I care

Chapter 366 Because I care

When I finally regained my senses and looked at the strange scenery outside the window, I turned to look at Lin Haoran. He pursed his lips without any expression on his face. I didn't know if he was angry or something else. He asked," Where are we going next?" 1

Lin Haoran kept silent for a while before stopping. Then, he turned to look at me and said," Why did Qi Mu come? Did you tell him?"

I immediately shook my head." No, but the last call at the airport was from Qi Mu. "I really didn't tell him, and I do n' t know why he knew. I never thought that he would follow me."

Lin Haoran looked at me for a while before sighing," Forget it. I know you won't. However, even if it was you who said it, there was nothing I could do about it. I had no position to say anything. "In the end, to you, I'm just a junior who's finally on good terms and can travel together from time to time."

There was a faint self-deprecating expression on Lin Haoran face. I bit my lip and said," No, we are friends." I said.

Lin Haoran laughed and didn't feel much at ease." Hehe, friend? Forget it, it's a friend. It's already very good. "I'm really afraid that you' re just a stranger or someone I've met a few times."

I didn't answer him, and I did n' t know how to answer him. I didn't want to say anything that did n' t exist. I couldn't say anything that was even more ruthless.

Lin Haoran paused for a moment before continuing," It's fine. I' m just a little jealous."

"Huh?" I looked at him in confusion.

Lin Haoran put away his smile and looked at me." I'd rather you avoid me as if you were avoiding Qi Mu. Only he can make your emotions fluctuate like this. "Because I care, that's why I' m so jealous of him."

I was stunned for a moment before smiling bitterly. I would rather Qi Mu something that even Lin Haoran could understand. It was good for him, good for me, and good for Li Wenting.

In the afternoon, Lin Haoran took me to the Grand Theater. The actors on the stage, on-off and on-off plots, I couldn't read a single word. All I could think of was Qi Mu, floating and heavy. It turned out that many things weren't something that could be forgotten just by thinking about it. It was n' t something that could be easily transcended without thinking about it.

When I was leaving, I rubbed my forehead and said to Lin Haoran," Go back. I can't play anymore."

Lin Haoran glanced at me and nodded without saying anything. When I arrived at our place, I went into my room and lay on my bed. I didn't even want to eat dinner. Actually, it wasn't that I could n' t play anymore. I shouldn't have thought about it. As long as he thought of Qi Mu, he would have a headache, but no matter if he closed his eyes or opened his eyes, he could not help but think of him. Qi Mu was in the same country as me, in the same city. A few hours ago, we were sitting together for dinner. My side was Lin Haoran, and his side was Li Wenting.

I suddenly thought of what Qi Mu had said to me a long time ago. Did I ever think that when we were separated from each other, the person by our side would no longer be the other person? Would it hurt to think of that possibility? I can't remember how easily I answered him back then, but now, I know very well that my heart would ache! It was extremely painful and complicated, but he couldn't do anything. He could n' t do anything. It was wrong to change, it was wrong to desire, and it was wrong to ask too much. In short, as long as they were delusional about narrowing the distance between us, it would be wrong.

In the past, I always felt that fate was unfair to us. I always felt that we had met all sorts of mistakes in the world. At that time, I always thought that the most painful thing was that I couldn't grasp the edge of fate. But today, I finally understood that the most painful thing wasn't that I could n' t control my fate and couldn't change my fate. It was that I could clearly see the trajectory. It was clearly in front of my eyes, but it was always pushed away by me. It was even more unpleasant than being taken away by other people.

The scenes from the past swayed in front of his eyes. It would not stop because of my control. I couldn't bear to cover my ears, but the effect was unexpectedly so futile. I still heard Qi Mu voice. He said he was at the airport and he said that if I left this time, we would never be able to do it again. I closed my eyes. I saw Qi Mu deep and cold gaze. He didn't say anything, as if he could easily tear apart all of my pride and persistence. My self-righteous and strong self-righteousness was nothing to him.

There seemed to be a slight chill in his palm between my fingers. Was the past still there? I stared at the ceiling in confusion. Even if I stubbornly kept my memories, we still couldn't be together. He had to give Li Wenting a life that was supposed to be intact, and I had to protect my crescent moon and Xiao Mo for a safe future.

While we were running towards love, we had unknowingly fallen into debt. We were still in deep debt. By now, the two of us were already in debt and had lost the right to hug each other. I couldn't tell whether it was because I was n' t fit or because he wasn't fit, or because we were n' t fit. However, I knew that I was willing to give up a little and give up everything without harming all the lives that I cared about. I wanted to exchange for the time we lost, and find the mistakes we had thrown in the past. If he couldn't find it, it would be better to never meet, never understand, never fall in love, never give up, never having the pain of dying right away, right?

Tears streaked across the corners of my eyes and landed mercilessly on the pillow. I rolled over and let myself shed tears. Qi Mu wasn't in front of me. What else could I control? Now, in the end, even if I wanted to cry for him, I had to choose a place to avoid all eyes and the malicious ridicule of the world?

Lin Haoran wasn't wrong. The reason why he lost his composure was because he could n' t control his emotions. The reason why his emotions fluctuated was because he cared. If he didn't care, there would n' t be any harm or injury. If he didn't care, there would n' t be any conflict between wanting to forget and being unable to forget. So, the only thing I had to do was not care about him.

In the middle of the night, I didn't know how I fell asleep in a daze. When my phone rang, I opened my eyes with a wet face and touched the light with my hands in confusion. When I saw that name, I suddenly woke up.

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