368: Chapter 368 No Love

Chapter 368 No Love

"Su Mei!" I interrupted her. The pain was too intense. When they rushed towards me, I was at a loss. I'm afraid that I ca n' t bear the pain of Su Mei. I'm also afraid that after the Su Mei has opened up all the pain, I wo n' t be able to stop what she wants to do. 2

"Su Mei, don't think about this anymore. I ca n' t continue thinking about it anymore. "Now that (Paul)'s gone, it's the truth. What you need to do should be put down." I said.

Su Mei smiled faintly. It sounded more miserable than crying." Really? Put it down?" "What, have you learned to say such Buddhist words to me?"

I sighed." I know it's not easy to put it down. If I could do it easily, I would n' t be in such pain. I'm just afraid of you ……"

I didn't say anything. Su Mei answered," I' m afraid I can't think of it, right? Was he afraid that I would die? Hehe. "Just say it."

I said in surprise," Don't let your imagination run wild. I' ll be back soon. I can book a ticket and come back. If you're in a bad mood, I' ll chat with you. Or maybe we can go out for a walk and relax."

Su Mei said," There's no need. Do n' t worry. If I really want to die, I won't call you again." Let me tell you, now that I'm looking down, it's the eleventh floor. If I want to die, I'll open the window and finish it. "Haha, if I really want to die, I don't have to wait until today. After so long, if I wanted to die, I would have died long ago."

When I heard Su Mei say that, I felt slightly relieved and said," I'm really afraid that you would do something stupid."

Su Mei laughed lightly." It's rare. The person in this world who is probably worried about me is you." What a joke! The last one left was the one who was worried that I would die. It was you who An Qingze loved for the rest of his life, Qin Ke. How sad my life was. I thought I could gamble my entire life for An Qingze, but it just so happened that I met (Paul). Since I met (Paul), why would I lose him forever?

Actually, I really wanted to die, but I only had one chance left. I didn't dare to die suddenly. Especially after (Paul) loved me so much, I realized that I had become so selfish. I was afraid that I would die. I was afraid that I would never be happy for the rest of my life. I really want to be happy now. It was too easy to die. Just like that, everything was settled. But after I jumped down, didn't all the memories that had happened between me and (Paul) that were so short? Could it be that no one in the world would remember that we had once fallen in love?

So, I decided that I wouldn't jump and die. I wanted to remember him well, to preserve the memories we had together, to think about the future we might have between us every day and live. It was because it was so painful that I called you. I knew that living like this would be very painful, but I never thought that it would be so painful. "Even though I'm not strong enough to say that, I regret meeting (Paul). If I had known that I would have lost so thoroughly, I would n' t have met."

I bit my lips and couldn't say anything. Every word Su Mei said stuck to my heart. As expected, every inch of pain doubled. Using pain to warm the pain was indeed a laughable and sad idea.

After talking to Su Mei for a while, he hung up the phone and was just about to put down his phone when he saw an unread message. Before I could open it, I already had a premonition in my heart. It was indeed Qi Mu.

"I miss you very much."

One sentence, four words, one symbol, and my heart was suddenly gripped tightly by someone. It was so painful that I couldn't breathe. I didn't know what was wrong with my tears. I could n' t stop them. There was only one sentence in my mind. I want to be with you, I want to be with you, I want to be with you!

Love, it hurt, it really hurt. It hurt so much that I wished I didn't have this heart in my chest. I lowered my head and deleted the message. Then, I found the Qi Mu number in my phone book and deleted it. When I got back, I thought I'd change my number. I' d never see you again in my life. I'd just stop contacting you.

All this time, I wasn't ruthless enough to treat him, nor was I ruthless enough to treat our past. I don't want to be like Su Mei. Only after losing the beauty of my life would I know how to cherish it. I do n' t want to be tormented anymore. I'm already in enough pain. I want to be selfish once. I want to embrace great happiness. Embrace the best love in the world. The thing I wanted was enough to wrap it tightly.

If she didn't love him anymore and did n' t love him like that anymore, it would be better if she didn't love him anymore. All night long, I didn't sleep for a second. I allowed my tears to fall down until my eyes were dry and swollen. I suddenly realized that I could laugh. I realized that I had suddenly become a brave warrior, a stubborn warrior who had managed to stand firm against the great sadness.

The next day, I gave Lin Haoran a smile that belonged to my youth. We went to climb the mountain, and I felt the sunlight hitting my hair gently.

I was very tired after a day. I was really tired, but I liked this kind of tiredness. It made me feel so tired that I didn't have the strength to think about it. I did n' t need to think about those painful things.

"What if we meet another Qi Mu today?" Lin Haoran suddenly asked me.

I glanced at him and said indifferently," I met him. I invited them for a meal yesterday. It's time to return it to us."

Lin Haoran looked at me for a long time and suddenly said in a muffled voice," I don't know why, but when I see you smiling, I might as well see you crying so well."

"What?" I didn't understand what he meant. However, Lin Haoran didn't wait for me and walked straight into the restaurant.

I shook my head and followed. We didn't meet Qi Mu again this day. In the next week or so, there was no such thing as a "coincidence ". I had thought about whether they had returned to China Qi Mu or not. However, I turned around and interrupted my guess. In such a large world, it wouldn't be easy for them to meet in the same city. Moreover, they might go to another city the next day.

After returning home, I returned to my Lechuang job. An Qingze looked thinner, we didn't mention our experiences outside.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival, I opened the ice cream moon cake I had just bought in the living room. The crescent moon had been clamoring for food. An Qingze came home early this day and sat beside me quietly watching my movements. Suddenly, he asked," Are you not planning on getting divorced?"

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