392: Chapter 392 wants to see Su Mei

Chapter 392 wants to see Su Mei

What kind of feeling did it feel like to lose? In the past, I had described it over and over again. I had thought that I had lost a lot of things. Even though I had found some, I couldn't find some again. But only at this moment, when Qi Mu told me in front of me that he was going to marry Li Wenting and that the rest of their lives had become a complete picture in front of me, I suddenly realized that I had lost something important. 0

That kind of thing had once crossed my entire youth. It had been painful for countless times, but it had always made me reluctant to abandon it. It was at this moment, at this moment when I could not love it, at this moment when I saw the life of Li Wenting and Qi Mu the Qi Mu, and finally, when they were closely linked together, that they had finally died. That kind of thing finally managed to break free from my bondage. When it was far away, it didn't even apologize to me or leave me a thought.

The fulfillment of Qi Mu, the fulfillment of Li Wenting, the fulfillment of me, the fulfillment of love. But his wish was his own destruction. With Qi Mu thought, he would give up the truth he insisted on and choose to smile like that. From that moment on, I saw the ruin of the Qi Mu, the ruin of the past that we had been in love with.

From his heart to his appearance, he had already been defeated. My heart was no longer in pain. I felt like I had been completely numb since Qi Mu did that. Originally, I had given up. Originally, I might have hesitated, but when Qi Mu gave up too, we were already dead. I walked numbly and lifelessly on the street. After walking for a long time, I remembered that the car was still in the hospital but still hadn't come over. So, he turned around and continued walking towards the hospital. All of this was like a dream, but if it was a dream, it would definitely be a dream that would never wake up again, an absolute nightmare! No, even calling it a nightmare beautified it.

Death, the fear of death, was in the sky above me. It was also floating around me or wrapped around me. I wanted to close my eyes, but I felt that even if I closed my eyes, I could not isolate the call of death. It was useless. It was useless. Everything was over. It was meaningless. Love, hate, pain, forgetting, regret were all meaningless.

I lost my Qi Mu, Qi Mu also lost me. We also lost each other, and we became the people we hated the most. The best thing in the world, it had existed between us. It had once held our hands with a proud and confident smile. And we always mistreated it. We bullied it, and we never cherished it properly. Finally, it no longer waited for us. When it left us, it would not turn back.

I suddenly wanted to see Su Mei. I called Su Mei," Where are you? Are you free now?"

Su Mei paused." Qin Ke, what's wrong with you?"

"I wanted to see you, but I suddenly wanted to see you. Right now, I really want to see you." When I said this, my voice began to tremble violently. This was the last courage I had gathered. I couldn't say anything else. If Su Mei refused, I would n' t look for her again. This kind of pain, this kind of experience of death, just one more time, was enough.

Su Mei didn't ask me any more," Alright, I' ll come right now."

We made an appointment and I walked to the hospital. I looked up at the place where that person was. The window was still half-opened. I couldn't see his appearance. I lost him and everything related to him. I might have been hypnotized by Lin Anru. I would rather forget everything, so I would n' t be in such pain.

Lowering my head, I found my car and went to the place I had agreed with Su Mei.

"So, what happened?" Su Mei asked me.

If I took a sip, would alcohol really numb my soul? But why did I feel like my body was so numb that I was about to die. My soul was still in pain and I wanted to die a thousand more times, ten thousand more times?

"Qi Mu him, he's getting married to Li Wenting. They' re going to get their cards. They think it's very troublesome, so they may have to get their cards first. Maybe they wo n' t have a wedding after they get their cards. Anyway, Qi Mu said that they won't get engaged. They' ll just get married."

I don't know why I' m talking about this. I don't know why I' m talking about this. I don't know. But all I wanted to say was to tell Su Mei everything. Even though I felt that I had no right to argue about it.

"I know Qi Mu's right. I know. I even told him to give Li Wenting an explanation. I know they should be like this. This is the best." "The last time, they were supposed to be engaged, but I don't know why. This time, I' m so sad. It's like I' ll never see Qi Mu again in my life. The last time, I still felt very good. I still felt very calm."

My tears kept falling. I think the most important effect of alcohol was to help me release my tears. I kept talking and drinking. Later on, I didn't want to drink anymore. My stomach was constantly nauseating, and my eyes began to sway. I even forgot that Su Mei was beside me. I didn't know if she was about to annoy me. When I turned to look at her, I felt that the person sitting next to me was probably Li Wenting.

I reached out and touched her face. Her skin was elastic and comfortable.

"I'm sorry. I know that I do n' t have the right to be sad. I know that you are the most worthy of his love and protection. I also knew that Qi Mu he should have given you an answer, I knew it was an explanation, an explanation that had been late for countless years. I'm sorry. I' m still sad. I'm ashamed of my sadness.

Li Wenting, I was so jealous of you that I went crazy with jealousy. You always said that Qi Mu loved me. You always said that I wasn't worthy. In your heart, I must be the happiest person in the world. To be able to get Qi Mu love, to be able to get the love of a person that you are willing to give for a lifetime. But did you know? "I'm really jealous of you. You can love him without fear. You can say in front of him that you' re willing to give everything for him. You can push me away and say that you're the one who puts Qi Mu on the tip of his heart."

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