450: Chapter 450, so-called family affection

Chapter 450, so-called family affection

I don't know exactly how I should describe this feeling. To me, An Qingze had already become a bottom line and a sense of security. Perhaps An Qingze wasn't my true love. In fact, I could say that he was n' t the one who I had put in the most effort to persist. But in reality, whether I wanted to admit it or not, An Qingze had become my last line of defense in the years and years. 2

If Qi Mu were talking to me right now, I could clearly be certain that even if he was cold, even if he was heartless, even if he didn't trust me. Yes, I could be certain that I was acceptable. I knew very well that there was a deep truth in my feelings for Qi Mu. But at the same time, perhaps from the moment he wanted to marry Li Wenting, or even earlier, from the moment I decided to give up the relationship between Qi Mu and me, perhaps from the moment I made my choice, I had already given myself a precaution to face it.

However, An Qingze was different. He was different. I knew very well that. Wasn't his current tone selfish? Was n' t he just being capricious? Wasn't he acting like a spoiled child? Was n' t he seeking An Qingze protection again? I was too familiar with An Qingze reaction. I was too used to what I could think with my toes. Every time I lost control, I lost my power. Every time I said I was afraid, I said I didn't know how to solve the problem. I felt that when I was about to give up, An Qingze was my power. He would not give up on me. He always gave me all the warmth and strength. An Qingze would never leave. No matter where he was, he would come to my side. I almost subconsciously confirmed the truth. I couldn't even accept any accidents or other consequences.

Therefore, when An Qingze coldly said these words to me, I was completely confused.

"Yueyue used Qi Yu phone to tell me that you met Qi Mu. You don't want her anymore. Do n' t you care about her? Is that true?"

It was pitch-black in the surroundings. Since when had it started? It was time for the surroundings to be quiet. I felt a chill all over my body. I felt a chill down my spine. If An Qingze said that, I felt like I had lost the entire world in an instant. I was abandoned by everyone in the world. It was an indescribable sorrow and pain.

Yes, it was sorrow and pain. I tried my best to pull the corners of my mouth open, trying to squeeze out some smiles. In the long silence between us, even a small piece of color decoration was fine. I thought so. But in the blink of an eye, I couldn't laugh anymore. What's the point? I realized it. An Qingze was just talking on the phone. He could n' t see my expression. Even if I was laughing, it was meaningless.

However, such a sudden awakening of consciousness could not bring me any help. What else could I do after I lost the courage and use of my expression and face? When the language no longer had any power, did I still choose to speak helplessly?

"An Qingze, in your heart, am I this kind of person? I would abandon the crescent moon just for the sake of my love, regardless of my daughter? "Really?" I asked him hard, but I could hear how pale my voice was.

I feel like I'm a helpless planet. I ca n' t live without the sight and trust that gave me all the energy sources. I found it ridiculous. What I had done was ridiculous, and my position was also ridiculous. Why did I give up my love? I had always thought that I was right to give up on Qi Mu. It was worth it, and I had no choice but to do it. I was doing it for the sake of my reputation as a great and irreplaceable family. I thought I was doing it for the safety of my children. I even thought I was sacrificing myself for them. But what was reality?

I couldn't imagine why the crescent moon could help Wu Junyu and Qi Yu lie to my father and slander me. Was she the crescent moon that I had raised since I was young? I clearly remembered that in the night wind, she had a cold and stubborn gaze. She stood in front of Wu Junyu and treated me as an enemy. Her biting lips, was this my so-called relative? Was this the kind of affection that I had believed for so many years and was more important and inseparable than love?

I suddenly found it ridiculous. It was extremely ridiculous. In the silent breathing of An Qingze and I, I knew that Qi Yu had won. Even though he had always made a move, if his family was really strong, how could he have been so easily changed by his words? My heart ached to the extreme. Was that my daughter? Even if Qi Yu said anything and had Wu Junyu, the daughter An Qingze and I raised from childhood could still be said to be someone else's?

I really felt sad that no matter how much I hated Qi Yu, he had indeed won. I had always been disdainful. I wanted to attack millions of times, the despicable affection he said. Hur hur, it was the affection that I valued. I even tried to save his affection. So that was all. When I knew that it was Yueyue who said that, my heart felt like it was dead. I didn't know how An Qingze would react. I did n' t care how he would reply to me. I was very disappointed with the crescent moon and my family. I was even more disappointed with the so-called choices I made. This wasn't the result I wanted. I had paid all the stakes for it, and I was utterly disappointed to have such a result. If kinship was something that could be easily thrown away, something that could be forgotten, and something that could be reversed, then what Qi Yu did might be right.

I suddenly felt that Qi Yu was the most pitiful person. He was able to sink into revenge in such a manner that he didn't want to. It was precisely because he valued family affection and he could n' t hide from it. He couldn't forget his entanglement.

Perhaps, he was just like me. He had seen such a love affair. It was so painful. That was why he was unwilling to accept it. That was why he was constantly struggling, right? I suddenly understood Qi Yu like this. I wonder if Qi Mu would feel the supreme sorrow if I knew.

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