13: Heart was in chaos

Heart was in chaos

The snow was fluttering in the wind, growing more and more intense. It was a short distance of 20 meters from the front yard to the front door, but my head was covered in white snow.

Lu Chenjun left the door for me, and with a gentle push, it opened. There was a familiar cotton tug on the entrance. The Lu Chenjun's thoughtfulness was as subtle as a warm treasure on his chest. It was so warm as not to be touched.

I stayed where I was for a while before bending over to change my shoes. Lu Chenjun came down again, I was already dressed casually. I wore a grey knitted sweater on my body and casually walked into the kitchen to pour two glasses of water with a pair of pant bags.

"Have a cup of warm water. I'll go to the study later." I took the transparent cup in his hand and a warm feeling came from my palm. I slowly took a sip and suddenly raised my head. My eyes were moistened by the steam

"Mom is at home?" !" It was three o'clock, and during the day, it was only reasonable for her to examine and approve the documents in the office.

Lu Chenjun could hear the meaning behind my words and smiled." Did you cause trouble? Mom is waiting for you for a day at home."

"..." I couldn't say anything for a long time. Did I cause trouble? There seemed to be quite a few. Did Lu Xuan really betray me? The entire cup of water was filled with shock. The ferocious beasts in front of him had to be calm!

In the study room, Mother calmly wrote something in her hand. Other than the seriousness that she should have had when approving documents, there was nothing else. I tapped the door with a stiff tendon.

"He's back." The knock on the door was very subtle, but it was especially clear in such a quiet space. She stopped the pen in her hand and raised her head, still serious.

I took a deep breath and nodded." You look for me."

I used a statement, not a question. I could vaguely recall what she was going to say downstairs. When I saw her, I was basically certain that it didn't matter whether it was a disaster or not. In front of that matter, everything else was insignificant.

When I was ten years old, everything here was unfamiliar to me. Facing my parents, I was like a pitiful child who was always on guard. I was careful and attentive. By now, I had already taken my parents' emotions very seriously. For example, even though she was serious, she did n' t have any pressure or dissatisfaction. As long as she didn't go against her face, she would easily let me go.

"How are you thinking for a semester?"

As I expected.

"I think Big G is pretty good." I answered tactfully, but she understood.

"You should understand that I didn't have to discuss it with you. I' ll give you time to think about it. The reason for this is because I respect you."

I gradually clenched my trembling fist, holding it in and not saying a word. It was as if I was going to force all the sadness and helplessness into my fist. She had always been like this. She gave you the right to choose freely, but she did not hesitate to control the outcome and develop in the direction she wished until she achieved her goal.

This woman had once brought a company that was on the verge of bankruptcy back to life on her own. She had made her way to prosperity like a broken bamboo. Now that she was able to develop easily in a public company, one could imagine how many methods she had.

In a sense, as a mother, she still had some influence on me. Otherwise, I wouldn't have known that I could n' t defeat her and still wanted to win for myself. Unwillingness was our greatest commonality.

"I don't understand. You said you would give me freedom 、、、"

"But I hope you won't disappoint me." She was already prepared. She probably guessed what I wanted to say.

I thought for a moment, then raised my eyes to meet her gaze. I had this kind of understanding a long time ago. Mother's eyes were sharp and cunning. When she looked at you, your psychological defense was gradually weakening until it collapsed.

I was so young and timid that I never dared to look straight at her. Suddenly, one day, I timidly told her that I wanted to go back to Grandma. She rejected me without saying a word. In a hurry, I raised my head and looked into her eyes. It was still so sharp. I was surprised to find that it was not scary. On the contrary, the psychological pressure that had accumulated in the past had disappeared because of the instant of eye contact.

In the end, I left the study silently. Before I left, I turned around and said calmly," Do you really respect me?" "What Lu Xuan going on?"

"By the way, I know a senior named Yangzi. She's very nice and takes care of me."

Holding the handle of the door, I looked in her direction meaningfully. The door slowly closed, and something in my heart was slowly sealed. We were well aware of many things and did not need to confront each other at all.

In fact, Senior Sister Yangzi was supported by her mother to study at the G University. She went from high school to graduate school. I remember that Yangzi once said that the reason why she stayed in G University was to repay her benefactor and complete some things for her.

Yangzi was especially eager for me as soon as he entered the school. He paid more attention to my every move than anyone else, and even helped me to register for the school sports meeting. Perhaps I could find a variety of reasons to explain this, but after I saw the invitation letter from Hui Yun Company (a subsidiary of Mommy Company) and the letter of recommendation from Mommy, I realized that I had been under Mommy's control since I entered Grand G. As for Lu Xuan, he wasn't someone Mommy could control. If it were n' t for him, I wouldn't have noticed it so early.

Back then, my grade line was much higher than the key line, but Mother insisted on letting me go to University G. Although University G was also a key institution, it was still somewhat different from my ideal school.

But Mother gave me a family card. She said that this was her alma mater. She hoped that I would experience the best period of my life here like her. As long as I went to University G, I would have the greatest freedom in my future life and would not force me to do anything. My mother rarely showed such an emotional side to me. Even if I was unwilling, I would not choose to resist.

At the same time, she earnestly proposed to send me to the United States to study music. She asked me to think about it, but I was so happy that I couldn't extricate myself from being immersed in the "maximum freedom ". After agreeing to think about it, I did n' t think about it again.

I thought General G was a free space. Without my mother's pressure and my father's strictness, I could get rid of something that I didn't want. I could also pursue what I wanted, but in the end, I realized that this was n' t the case. My parents' will continued to descend on me through the thousands of mountains and rivers, restraining me and giving me no chance to overdo it.

The door closed without a sound. I stood there for a long time before I deeply exhaled, but my heart grew heavier. His head seemed to be filled with lead. It didn't hurt or itch, but he could n' t lift it up. Lu Chenjun always said that the study was evil. As soon as we entered, we wouldn't have to raise our heads and come out. Thinking about it, that was really the case. Devil Barrier!

I lowered my head and walked towards my room. My room was next to Lu Chenjun. I think I've never mentioned this to him before. I wonder what kind of attitude he is. Should I ask him?

"Where did the headless ghost come from?" As I was Lu Chenjun the door, I lowered my head and hesitated. The sudden voice scared me so much that I jumped out of nowhere. I didn't knock on his door! He wasn't a Lu Chenjun, but also a Lu Xuan. He really had him everywhere.

The room was full of heat. He took off his coat and put it on his arm. He hugged his shoulder and leaned against the door frame. Even when he returned home, he was still a formal and boring person. He really didn't know where this man's flash point came from, causing people's minds to be messed up.

"You're the ghost! Your entire family is a ghost! "Why did you suddenly appear in front of someone else? You're in charge of it?" I forced myself to calm down and looked at him with a resentful expression.

"It's natural for ghosts to scare people. There's no need to be responsible."

"、、、、、、" Really knew how to climb down the stairs. Shameless.

I was speechless in exchange for his smugness. He smiled like a child snatching candy and revealed his white teeth. Lu Xuan could always use a smile to refresh my worldview. For example, at this moment, I was stunned for half a minute, no matter how I looked at him.

I didn't have the time to argue with him. I withdrew my gaze from him and walked towards my room as if nothing had happened.

"You're in a bad mood?" When I was about to walk into the door after turning the key, I heard his serious tone. I stopped and thought for a moment.

"As long as I don't see you, I' m not in a bad mood."

I looked at him with a provocative smile, and he immediately stopped talking. He silently looked at me with his deep gaze for a few seconds and pushed open the Lu Chenjun door to enter. It seemed like he was following his own room.

I stood where I was and pondered for a while. Was he angry? He was definitely not happy anyway. I curled my lips and entered the room. Was it related to me whether I was angry or not?

"Swish --" I pulled open the curtain in front of the French window of the piano room. I really liked its satin-like texture. It hung high in front of the French window, like a giant's long skirt, mysterious and beautiful. Outside the window, all that was floating on the ground was snow. It was so white that it was sparkling and dazzling. The interior was dark and dim. Only the piano was as white as snow. It was as white as snow.

After struggling for five days, he finally set foot in the ten-square-meter space. His fingers slid across the keys of the zither and made a crisp and short sound. He walked around the place for a long time and his thoughts drifted far away. His memories of nearly eight years seemed to have something to do with this place every day. To me, this was a cage and a place where his heart was set.

Thinking back, when my mother had asked me to practice the piano, I had already practiced it. It was said that this thing needed to be nurtured from a young age, but when I first came into contact with it at the age of ten, I actually learned it smoothly and without any obstacles. The music that flowed out of my fingers supported my anxious heart.

My mother was very happy with my performance. She actually treated me like a future pianist, but I didn't love it. I never thought that it would be the most important part of my life.

The zither room was connected to the backyard and could be set foot by pushing open the French window. The courtyard was quiet and peaceful, silent under the snow. I could feel the cold wind passing through my skin. Under the effect of the wall, the wind in the courtyard did not wreak so much havoc, but it could not stop the cold. I couldn't help but shiver, but my mind was much clearer.

In the courtyard, there were swing chairs that sat in the sun all year round. I was so happy with the cool wind that I sat down to enjoy the snow.

There was a big trend in the snow and the wind made a rustling sound. I spread out my hands on the back of the chair and closed my eyes with my head raised. I originally wanted to vent my anger, but I didn't want my thoughts to. The more I thought about it, the more chaotic I became. Her hair was tossed about in confusion. She couldn't think about it anymore. Her brain cells had died in battle. ..

When he suddenly opened his eyes, a face with delicate features instantly enlarged in front of my eyes and made me jump again! !

I was so scared that I subconsciously wanted to stand up and raised my leg to greet him mercilessly. A white mark suddenly appeared on his neat and flawless black pants. He furrowed his brows and straightened his bent waist. His hands were placed in his pants pocket. He looked down at me with a look of responsibility on his face.

I caressed my chest in shock. Was the distance just a little too close? If I get stronger, it would be awkward.

"Lu Xuan Where are you sleepwalking in broad daylight?" When I saw that he and I were far away, I stood up and acted as if I wanted to fight you.

He saw that I wasn't in a hurry, so he slowly spoke with a calm expression.

"That's not scientific." He said that it wasn't scientific for him to sleepwalking, but I felt that it was n' t scientific. His mental state was abnormal.

I rolled my eyes and didn't want to bother with him.

Suddenly, he thought of why he ran to my backyard. There was no one at home? His parents had already gone to the company. Lu Chenjun the company had just started, he had been running crazily outside every day. He hadn't had any time since the holidays, and Aunt Zhang had taken a leave of absence today.

So, did Lu Xuan know how to fly or how to escape? Just as I was puzzled, my movements slowed down and I turned around to stare at him with a strange look. 2

"Don't look at me like this. There's nothing worth my attention." These words were ambiguous and filled with thoughts.

"If you don't care about me, then you' re thinking about my brother!" I crossed my arms and teased with interest. In fact, it was not hard to understand that the relationship between the two of us was so good that the house itself was close to each other. There was no boundary between the backyard. The fence that was less than a meter tall could be used as decoration.

"But it's a pity. My brother has an appointment with a beautiful woman today. There's no time to flip your cards, Young Master Lu. Don't be sad!" With that said, I smiled slyly and looked at his face, wanting to see how angry he was.

However, he didn't seem to care about my joke. His expression was serious and serious. His eyelids were slightly red, and his eyes were filled with an indescribable emotion. He looked at me with such an expression, but it could be said that he was not taking my eyes off me. I was stared at so unnatural that I hesitated to put down my arms and put away my joking attitude.

"What's wrong?" Even though I was having trouble with him and wasn't afraid of provoking him, I would n' t be able to beat him if they really fought. There wasn't even a single person at home who could persuade him.

"Don't look at me like this. I always feel like I' m going to be punished by you!" As I said that, I took a few steps back and sat back in the rocking chair. It was quite like a long talk. However, my voice became smaller and smaller. In the end, it turned into a murmur.

As if he had recovered from a sudden realization, he quietly raised the corner of his mouth and completely suppressed the seriousness of the previous second.

My face turned black. You're really free!

"I also know that you are in trouble." His voice was low, as if it was buried by the wind and snow. I could hear it clearly. I didn't say a word, but my heart was rich.

It seemed like you had given me this illusion every time!

As I spoke, he sat in the half-empty seat beside me. I was annoyed. If I had known I was sitting in the middle, who would I be afraid of in my territory!

As soon as he sat down, I felt nervous. I pretended to be calm and moved to the side. I glanced at him. He was looking up at the snow. From my perspective, it was even more dazzling than the snow. I suddenly wanted to laugh. In fact, I also laughed. He turned around and did not know why.

"It's really strange. There's actually a day when I'm sitting with you in peace and enjoy the snow."

Lu Xuan didn't find it strange. His expression did n' t change much. He didn't speak much. Not only did he speak little, but his expression was also lacking. He kept thinking about everything in his heart. Once he showed it, it would definitely be the time for him to get the result. This person was neither decisive nor boring.

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