20: Cowering and walking

Cowering and walking

In the midst of my hazy consciousness, a figure dressed in light gauze and white gradually drifted away in front of my eyes. I always felt that that figure had been hiding in the depths of my memories for a long, long time, until it was indistinct. I desperately waved the white gauze in front of me to chase after it. The more anxious I became, the more I couldn't catch it. I did n' t know why I wanted to chase after it. It was as if I had lost a very important thing, and my entire heart hurt.

I woke up from this sense of disappointment and loss. I had no Lu Xuan. She hugged the blanket and recalled the dream. It had happened just now, but she couldn't remember anything. She sighed and could n' t help but blush for my memories. Could it be that the dementia had advanced? Was it a mental disorder? !

The medicine Lu Xuan bought was really effective. The pain in his stomach was already great. She slept early in the night, so she was very energetic when she woke up in the middle of the night. His mouth was dry and his tongue was very dry. He tried to open his mouth and make a sound, as I had expected, his voice was hoarse.

He lifted the blanket and got up to go to the living room. The lights in the living room were still on, and the room was bright. Could it be that his parents were back at this point? He was in a rush to find proof, and then he sped up his pace.

Amazingly, his parents didn't see him, only the Lu Xuan who was leaning on the sofa with his clothes on his head. He did n' t say anything in the middle of the night as he stared fixedly at the crystal lamp above his head.

"Aren't you sleepy?" I quickly walked over and stopped behind him. He looked at me with his head upside down, less distant and more comical.

"I'm awake." "Is there any discomfort?" He had been drenched in the rain last night. Before I returned, he had been standing in the rain for an unknown period of time and had spent half a night in order to take care of me. At this moment, his voice was a little rustling. He coughed a few times as soon as he opened his mouth. His face was sickly pale.

"Yes, my throat is like a fire." I told the truth, but I wasn't in a hurry to sit down. I walked straight to the kitchen and poured two cups of water before I sat down on the sofa beside him. With the clear sound of glass touching the glass, I slowly pushed one cup of water in front of him.

"Actually, you don't have to stay here. I can take care of myself. Do n' t ruin my body. I'll blame myself."

The two of them hugged and kissed each other for the entire night. They couldn't even get a good night's sleep. Maybe it was alcohol. I even thought about staying with him like this. When he woke up and saw him again, he suddenly regained his composure. He tried his best to draw a line between Lu Xuan and me. How was that possible? !

Lu Xuan was good at seeing through people's hearts, so why did n' t she know my current attitude? Moreover, my defenses in front of him were useless, so nothing could escape his eyes.

"Do you have anything to say?" His probing gaze paused on my face for a while, but he was still surprised by my indifference.

I puffed up my cheeks, raised my head and let the blinding light fall into my eyes. I frowned and thought for a moment, but in the end, I shook my head decisively.

He slightly raised his eyebrows and took a large gulp of water from the table. The water was cold. I pursed my lips but didn't feel anything. According to his method of drinking, my teeth trembled.

As expected, he frowned and looked at me with extreme displeasure. I didn't dare to look straight at him, so I quickly turned my gaze. But he didn't intend to let me off just like that. As soon as he spoke, his voice became even deeper and hoarse

"You didn't. I did."

"You don't have to be responsible for this. It's just a kiss. I don't care." In fact, I wanted to say that I just didn't have my first kiss. It was n' t like I didn't have my first night, so I did n' t have to take it seriously.

I swung my right hand back to show that I really didn't care. I'm not that pretentious either. I' m not going to lose my first kiss. Besides, the other party is Lu Xuan, so I'm not at a disadvantage.

"Lu Yan, stay with me."

His words changed without any warning. His voice was light and light, making me think that I was hallucinating. The room immediately fell into a strange silence.

I looked at him and blinked a few times, confirming that the person in front of me was really Lu Xuan right. If it wasn't for my ears, it was Lu Xuan brain.

"You 、、、"

I opened my mouth and tried to say something, but I realized that I had nothing to say. However, I really wanted to say something, and my expression twisted.

It could be said that my current appearance perfectly pleased Lu Xuan. He smiled and stood up with interest, but I was a little nervous. I nervously nestled in the sofa, stretching my hands and feet to make sure that he could not sit next to me. I always felt that his expression and movements at this moment didn' t reveal a feeling – I won' t.

This time, he had completely lost his smile and I was a little annoyed. This is my home, I'm afraid of him!

But I really couldn't beat him. He was only handsome for three seconds. Facts proved that in front of Lu Xuan, I was a coward!

He sat on the armrest of the sofa beside me and didn't plan to do anything to me. He just wanted to give me some pressure, but before he even started, I had already exposed my weakness. Thinking about it, my heart was burning.

"Are you feeling sick?" Wang Yao asked. "I'll go get your medicine."

He was sitting at the back of my seat. I turned around and looked at him with a dog-legged expression. However, my desire to get him some medicine was real. As soon as I got up, my legs didn't stand up straight and I was pressed back to where I was.

"I thought I didn't need my reminder. I' m not joking, Lu Yan."

His eyes narrowed with a shallow smile and he was serious. As for me, my thoughts spread. If Lu Xuan were joking with me, I would have thrown him back to his house tonight. It was not funny at all!

I was still openly distracted. His wide palm rubbed my chicken nest head a few times and his messy hair became even worse.

I wanted to get away from his hand and rolled my eyes at him. However, at this moment, I could clearly see the punishment in his eyes. It was to try to get distracted again! I immediately became honest 、、、

"No, you can't play with me even if you' re not joking! You think,,,," I flipped my eyes and thought hard. I pointed at myself and then pointed at him." Do you think, I,,,, you... are possible?"

I don't understand why he suddenly thought of this. I' ve never thought of being with him for so long. How much did he know about me and what did he like me? It was just an illusion. How could he dare to say such words so easily?

It was true that I had never touched on the relationship between men and women. It was precisely this that I had always considered and reserved my rationality. I couldn't accept the feelings that came from a sudden impulse. After realizing that it was n' t suitable, I decided to leave. Other than a scar on my heart, I couldn't see what I could get in such a relationship.

I can understand that someone would be willing to disregard everything for the sake of the illusion and beauty in the beginning, but I would not allow myself to become like that. Once a relationship was given, it would be heart and soul. If they knew from the beginning that it was not an ideal relationship, then I would rather not start.

"You don't need to be so anxious to make a conclusion. I' ll give you three days to think about it." His slender fingers kept moving through my hair. Unknowingly, my hair had lost its original roughness.

In the end, he patted me on the head and stood up to walk outside the door. I was depressed after a battle between the heavens and the earth. Finally, my rationality defeated my sensibility and stopped him before he stepped out of the door.

"Lu Xuan, it won't take me three days. I can tell you now." In order for him to look at my answer, I had a serious look on my face.

"I won't be with you," said Wang Yao.

"I said,,,,," I knew what he wanted to say and didn't give him a chance to finish.

"Even after three days, my answer won't change. We're not suitable. I' ve never seen you before. Divide you and I into one world. Just think about how we've been together for the past half a year. No one would think that we were suitable. "Of course, I didn't reject you because you had caused me a lot of trouble in the past six months. I did n' t even consider you."

After saying that, I realized that I was already in front of him. The moment I spoke, he stopped walking outside. He turned around and watched me approach him bit by bit, closing his door.

His eyes were dark and shiny. He could not see through his emotions. I suddenly felt a little scared. It's not good to reject anyone but to reject Lu Xuan. You' re playing with fire, Lu Yan!

The corner of his mouth curled up. From my perspective, he looked like he was mocking himself. I was even more unsure. He wouldn't fly into a rage from embarrassment and be violent! OMG was so terrifying, thinking that I would take a step back cautiously.

In the darkness, the corner of the living room was silent. In the darkness, I was the only person left. Everything was only a single outline. I stared blankly at the direction of the door and curled up into the sofa with my pillow in my arms.

After Lu Xuan left, I felt that the white light in the room was particularly eye-catching. I pressed down all the switches and sat down.

I refused with all my heart and effort in exchange for Lu Xuan disapproval. He didn't seem to listen to me. He did n' t show any anger at all. Instead, he bent down and wrapped me in his arms. He held my back in comfort and said

"It doesn't matter. Just think about it for three days. If your answer does n' t change after three days, let's talk about it!" He paused for a few seconds in the middle and finally squeezed out a sentence. How about we talk about it? !

What a joke! But it wasn't funny at all 、、、

I always felt that there was a huge pit waiting for me to jump, but I was powerless to counterattack. This kind of Lu Xuan made me feel at a loss, even more so, unable to face it. What's more, I was powerless to resist it. Fortunately, I had already woken up. Otherwise, I didn't know what I would do to make me bite my tongue.

The result? In the end, I was in Lu Xuan arms for a long time, but I didn't think of pushing him away. When I regained my senses, he was gone! !

Three days was like a blink of an eye under the feeling of complacency and impatience.

The night was already dark. The thought of having to face it tomorrow made me so agitated Lu Xuan I walked around the room several hundred times before finally lying on the bed.

Today, my parents, who hadn't been around for more than half a month, finally showed up. At that time, I was amused by the TV series. I stared at my parents who pushed the door open and entered for three seconds. Finally, I felt through the remote to turn off the TV.

Supper's mother personally cooked a table of dishes. When she saw the busy yet elegant figure outside, she suddenly realized a sentence in her mind. This was really the first time in eighteen years!

Of course, the atmosphere in the banquet was so strange that I couldn't explain it. I buried my head in my stomach all the way, fearing that my presence was n' t low enough.

"Tsk~ I don't even look like a girl at dinner. What's going on?"

I paused and hesitated for a moment before putting the last mouthful of rice into my mouth.

"Mom and Dad, I'm full. Eat slowly." 1

Mother was clearly unhappy. She couldn't stop if she provoked me. She had suspected that I was her biological daughter, so I decided to implement the old method. Let's go.

"I won't eat after saying a word. What's wrong?" I looked sadly at the bowl and chopsticks that had already been put down. It was not possible for me to leave for a while, nor was it possible for me not to leave.

"Tell the child well." Her calm and angry voice interrupted us, and it eased my embarrassment.

I looked at the owner of the voice in surprise. In my impression, he was a cold and detached person. He never bothered with me and didn't ask. The family's affairs were just what his mother meant and he never interfered. As for everything about me, he treated me as a bystander.

It was truly unprecedented to protect me like this today. In his heart, he secretly hoped that in today's conversation, I would not fight alone.

"Sit down. I have something to say to you." Her sudden calm tone made me hesitate even more, but I still had to sit down. Even though I was unwilling to do so.

Even if she didn't say it, I knew what she was going to say. The one who should come would always come. I even had a little bit of anticipation for this conversation. As long as I made it clear once, I would have no worries in the future. It was a smooth journey.

"I didn't say much. How are you thinking about going abroad?" This cold and stubborn attitude really matched her image as a powerful woman. However, the child opposite her was really good?

At that moment, I no longer hesitated and poured out all my thoughts. Perhaps from today onwards, I would completely separate myself from the person in front of me who was called the mother. This was not something I would like to see, but I could not force myself to choose a life that I did not want. In the end, I could not even get a smile of approval from her. .

"I've already thought about it. I want to stay at the G University."

"No!" "I told you, don't let me down." Look, she even gave me an opportunity to explain.

"Mom, I'm already an adult. It's up to me to choose whatever I want. I don't think I' m incompetent enough to have you plan my life."

"What are you talking about? "Did I force you?"

Wasn't it? !

"Don't always feel that we owe you. I' ve spent the past eight years training you with all my heart and effort. You should think about it yourself. "Since you've done so much for you, you should think for our sake. Be clear that you owe us!"

Perhaps the parents had such a common problem. Once a conflict broke out, they would point the problem to whoever owed it to. Because you owed me, that was why I was right. You had to listen to me.

Most of the time, when people's quarrels rose to the height of kinship, the intensity of injuries was unpredictable.

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