47: The past

The past

"Have you thought about it?" "Once you see someone, there's no room for regret."

If I hadn't thought it through, why would I have come to her?

"I never regret it." I said firmly," I hope you won't regret your actions today and in the past."

Her expression changed. She put down the brush and propped her hands on the table. She looked at me with an imposing manner and laughed again.

"That's good. You do n' t have to think about what's going on with Lu Xuan. You know how inappropriate you are."

In other words, I wouldn't accept such a casual conclusion about my infatuation with Lu Xuan. It was n' t that I wasn't infatuated now. However, after these two days, how much of my infatuation turned into confusion. To be more precise, I was n' t sure that I could keep going with Lu Xuan. After all, I was a proud person.

"Don' t think that I don' t know anything about you and him. If it wasn' t for Chen Jun repeatedly stopping you, I' m afraid you wouldn' t have been together for more than two months."

I didn't answer her for a long time. Mother probably thought that she had poked me in the pain. In fact, I was indeed very sad, but it was n' t difficult to give up. Lin Ling had said that we were all eighteen flowers, so it wasn't impossible for anyone to do so.

I thought for a moment and shook my head." It doesn't matter. I did n' t agree because of what you said to me. That's not enough to shake me."

In fact, in my opinion, my mother was already lacking in fear. A seemingly heavy threat from her could no longer affect me. I didn't agree to go abroad because of her. Similarly, if I insisted on being with Lu Xuan, neither she nor the distance would stop me.

"Oh?" She smiled with interest." Why don't you tell me what made you decide?"

I sniggered and the point came.

"Mom, you've always remembered that besides me, you also have an excellent daughter. I do n' t think it's just that simple, it's something you'll never forget! "I can't forget the fact that she's no longer in the world. I can't forget that the crazy devil wants another daughter to replace her!"

I was so excited that I held my hand on the other side of the table to confront her. I didn't lose a bit of my aura.

"Of course, you've forgotten one thing for a long time. That is, your daughter has sacrificed her glorious life for you, for you, for giving up her dreams."

She obviously didn't know that I would use Lu He to talk about things. The impact of memory made her helpless. Her hands that were pointing at me trembled violently. I did n' t guess wrong. She had spent a long time working to numb herself, but it was just to prevent her from remembering the things that she had personally forced Lu He Wang Juelu.

"What... what are you talking about?" "Nothing." She forced herself to remain calm. All she said was to comfort herself.

"Have you forgotten?" When she was young, Lu He liked piano very much. Her biggest dream was to be a pianist. Therefore, studying abroad was a great thing for her, who was still young that year.

But you! For the sake of her company, a lifetime contract would keep her trapped in the entertainment industry. "Of course, you can also say that being a celebrity and a pianist are both of the same nature. They all stand in the middle of the stage and enjoy the applause and cheers of others. At worst, they will change careers in the future. That's what you think..."

"No!" "I didn't... I did n' t!" Her expression changed again and again, from a trance to pain.

"I, that's only temporary. I just want her to help the company tide over the difficulties. As long as the company works normally, I' ll take her away immediately. Even if I break my contract, I'll take her away... Just wait a moment..."

At this moment, she was no longer as strong and gorgeous as before. She even shed tears of regret, leaving her in a sorry state.

My heart was already numb and I did not feel her tears at all.

"The result was two years. On the 10th birthday, the company held a birthday party for her potential child star. She escaped from the company while she was in chaos, and her bodyguards chased after her. In the end," I choked, but I couldn't say anything. My eyes were wet. I sniffed and raised my head to try not to cry.

"In the end, she was in a car accident while crossing the road. She saved her life after several times, but when she woke up is still unknown. "That's right!"

I stopped and smiled bitterly. On my 10th birthday, I was very ordinary, but it was my last happy birthday. After studying all day long, I returned to my grandma's house and served a large bowl of longevity noodles. I ate with relish and almost broke my belly. Finally, I leaned back and could n' t move on the sofa. Grandma laughed at me and said that I was like a piglet that couldn't feed enough.

Thinking back, there were still some bad signs that day. After I finished eating, I took the initiative to wash the dishes. Grandma followed me when the phone rang at home. A few bowls were very slippery in the bubble water. I fell two bowls without any hesitation. I squatted down to pick up the fragments and accidentally cut my finger. Red blood came out from the slit. The bright color seemed to be a hint. It tightly absorbed my gaze. I could see that after a long time, the blood had already flowed into my palm.

I collected my mind and found a broom to clean up the debris. When I finished, I saw that the broom handle was covered in blood. I cursed myself for being stupid. I used water to clean up the blood before I went out to find a Band-Aid.

Grandma had already finished the call, and she had a serious look of regret on her face. I didn't know what had happened, but she suddenly asked me if I would be willing to go with my parents if they came back to pick me up.

I naively thought that Grandma was trying to test me. It was like someone asking your parents who you wanted to save when they fell into the water at the same time. I thought I was smart and shook my head. I happily kissed her and said in a sweet voice that I would never be separated from Grandma.

A moment of worry flashed across Grandma's face. She looked at me with a kind expression. I didn't think too much about it. Who knew that after a few months, my parents really appeared at home and I had a world-shaking life.

Lu He woke up at that time, but due to the heavy impact of her right hand, there wasn't much chance of playing the piano anymore. She could n' t accept it for a while. She was stunned and depressed all day, as if her life was dim.

Within a few days Lu He I had been sent to the Lu residence to treat my arms and fingers. Although it had worked for a few years, I couldn't play the piano like before.

Lu He was already traumatized. Coupled with the delay in playing the piano, she had suffered from depression during those years. She had lost sleep and lost her mind all day. After being disappointed for too long, she became desperate. In the end, she voluntarily gave up on the piano and never touched it again.

Lu Chenjun said Lu He had seen me before. Back then, in order to revive her will, Lu Chenjun sent a video of me playing the piano to Lu He. He said it very mysteriously. His lifeless eyes suddenly had a trace of vitality. During that time, it was when I was very interested in the piano. Lu He saw me like I was in the past, and when I touched the piano, I was in high spirits.

Suddenly, one day, I didn't want to learn piano and had a bad temper. Lu He was also worried, but I did n' t have to live like before. So, she thought of teaching me how to learn piano, but she could only teach it through voice. She didn't want me to know that she was alive like this.

Of course, I also remembered that one of the piano teachers was the most special and my favorite. Although she could only hear her voice, it seemed to have truly brought me into a wonderful world. Her voice was very delicate, and every time she talked to me about the piano, she was filled with joy. When she taught me, she was even more patient and meticulous. If she could accompany me all the time, perhaps in the end, I would fall in love with the piano. Like her, I wanted to play the piano all my life.

Every time I thought about my piano lessons, only that part was unforgettable. When I found out that the mysterious teacher was Lu He, I was also happy. At least I didn't have any interactions with her.

I asked Lu Chenjun why she had taught me to give up halfway. He sighed deeply and recalled what afternoon it was. Lu He wanted to see my life outside of the piano. Then, he secretly broadcasted my daily life to her.

Unfortunately, for some unknown reason, Mom was reprimanding me that day. It seemed that I had been provoked by the little girl again. She cried and said," I don't want to learn piano. It's all because you're holding me down..."

After Lu He heard my complaints, his eyes dimmed. The next day, he didn't want to give me any more lessons.

In fact, my words were just a flash of anger. Even if my teacher wasn't Lu He, I still had to practice the piano every day. On the contrary, I did n' t have any Lu He anymore. The little interest I had just developed was gone. From now on, I only had an attitude towards the piano and didn't like it anymore.

Lu He had also become autistic since that day, and depression was on the rise. There were several times when he couldn't believe that he had done something light. Although he had been saved, he could only survive.

During the New Year, Lu He ran up to the rooftop during the night. She didn't have any feelings for her and jumped down. This time, no one noticed that she was n' t feeling right. She even had a heart-to-heart talk with the nurse before she went to bed. In the end...

Lu He's death Lu Chenjun just a few short sentences, it was probably too painful to face.

If I hadn't lied to Lu Chenjun, I might never have known about these things. Lu Chenjun was afraid that I would think too much. In fact, I had thought too much. I felt that I was also responsible for Lu He death. If I had n' t said those angry words back then and hadn't let her hear them, perhaps she would have taught me for a long time until one day I finished my dream for her and brought her out of the shadows. We would meet each other... so that she would n' t fall into despair again and wouldn't be in such an irretrievable situation.

Everything was just empty talk. I couldn't change the past, so I could only grasp the present and future. That was why I had to study the piano abroad. This was the only thing I could do for her and let Lu He live in the hearts of people as a pianist.

This was exactly what Mom wanted. From the time she let me touch the piano, oppressed me to play the piano, to the time she forced me to go abroad with all kinds of methods, all this was to make me another Lu He, play the piano for her, and complete her unfinished dream.

We all woke up from our memories. This was the first time our mother had cried with tears on her face. Although she was silent, she was also sad. In the end, she finally fell weakly into her chair, her hands on her forehead looking very tired.

"Your grandma is at the People's Hospital in City T. Go find her!"

City T! I stared at her with a bit of blame. Grandma was so sick that she had moved so far away.

I didn't have time to immerse myself in the pain of her memories. I turned around and ran out while booking a ticket on my phone.

"Yan Yan..." I stopped when I heard her call me.

"Don't blame me. I... miss your sister too much..."

I sat on my back and listened to her finish. I couldn't tell if she was repenting or asking for forgiveness. Maybe she had it all.

"I understand you, but I can't forgive you."

She shouldn't have threatened me with Grandma. Her fault was to exclude me from this family from the beginning. If she had told me about the Lu He earlier, why would it be like this?

I didn't stop. When I ran to the stairs in front of my house, my eyes suddenly turned pitch-black. I stepped on the air and fell to the ground. Before I fell to the ground, a powerful hand held me by my waist. My eyes finally cleared and there was only a familiar feeling of dizziness.

I looked at the Lu Xuan holding me in shock. Before he could say anything, I broke free from his hand and thanked him with an unnatural expression.

He slightly furrowed his brows at my polite yet distant appearance. With just a brief moment, he regained his composure the next moment.

"You still have a fever. Don't run around." 0

I rolled my eyes speechlessly. Of course, there was something wrong! If it was nothing, why would I run? Of course, I was still polite on the surface.

"Yes, I'll go find Grandma."

I wanted to run again, but I didn't realize that my answer was a little clumsy. However, before I could run two steps, I had him pull me back. I turned to look at him in confusion and saw him opening his mouth to ask something, but he said," I'll go with you."

I thought it would be good to have one more person and one more person to take care of me. After all, I couldn't help but feel dizzy from an unexpected situation. With Lu Xuan in my mind, I was always at ease.

Moreover, I still have a lot to say to him...

On the plane, Lu Xuan didn't know when she bought the medicine and forced me to take two pills. I thought so. The repeated recovery of this illness was too exhausting for me. It would be better if I took it better. So, could it be that I listened to her and swallowed the bitter medicine?

Lu Xuan couldn't help but laugh when I saw how hard I was trying to take the medicine. I opened my eyes wide and looked at him. The smell of the medicine in my mouth almost made me vomit.

"What?" "You're laughing at me!"

He didn't hide it either. He gently rubbed my head a few times and pressed me against his shoulder." Be good. Have a good sleep and you' ll be able to see Grandma when you wake up."

His voice was so gentle and charming. I couldn't recall it because of him. The medicine contained sleeping ingredients, and the effects of the medicine made me sleepy.

Let's just hold on to him for a few more days. Anyway, I' m still Lu Xuan girlfriend now!

With that thought, I felt much more at ease...

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