52: Ended with nothing

Ended with nothing

Since that was the case, why was he anxious to be with me? Do you really think of me as a substitute, or do you think of me as a tool for forgetting Lu He transferring pain?

No matter what, it was something I could not accept...

I didn't know what to do for a moment. He was n' t awake yet and I couldn't vent my anger. The only thought in my mind was to escape. I did n' t want to be fooled by him like a fool anymore. I was obviously worried about him and even pretended to be magnanimous.

I couldn't take off his hand, so I could only dig out his fingers one by one. As I dug out his tears, they were n' t worth much, just like that...

"Xiao Jiu."

His voice was exceptionally clear, and I couldn't help but be stunned. I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. He did n' t know if he had woken up or wasn't drunk at all. His face was calm and without a ripple, because my tears for no reason were both tangled and distressed.

I didn't think he was too muddle-headed, but I did n' t see him say anything after a long pause. The moment his anger erupted, it couldn't be stopped.

"Let me go!" I tried hard to shake off his hand and ran towards the ladder.

Lu Xuan quickly grabbed my arm and pulled it back. He controlled my wrists with one hand and held me in his arms with the other. However, I was very resistant to him. I pushed his elbows and released his hand.

He didn't even look at him as he ran out. He thought to himself, I' ll climb the ladder and you won't catch me again. The cellar hadn't been paved. The floor was uneven. I had alcohol on my head, and my legs were soft. After being lightly mixed, I fell to the ground.

Thinking about how bad I had been for years, I didn't encounter a few things that were worthy of my heart. It was easy for me to meet someone who was worthy of my heart. Now, it's already yellow...

I lowered my head and couldn't get up on the ground. Fortunately, this wine cellar was quite big. If I could n' t even wrestle with it, I wouldn't die unjustly if I knocked against the wall again.

"Xiao Jiu..." Lu Xuan was shocked by my current situation, and he lifted me up in fear.

I was still sobbing quietly, but when he called me, I felt wronged. I raised my head and started crying.

"Don't call me Xiao Jiu. I do n' t want to hear you call me that. I regret it... Woo... Wa..."

While I was crying, I didn't forget to speak angrily. Lu Xuan hand paused for a moment. His aura was suppressed, and the surroundings were once frozen.

I don't care about him anymore. Let's just cry and see what you do. He pinched the space between his brows with a headache as he roared," Lu Yan!"

As soon as he called me, I stopped crying. It was as if I had been frightened and even sobbed carefully. I had said that Lu Xuan was going to start a fire. I was really afraid. This had never changed.

His call just now caused the veins on his forehead to pop out. It was obvious that he had been forced by me to the point where he couldn't do anything. He did n' t call me Xiao Jiu anymore. Just like my wish, it really chilled the hearts of the two of them.

When he realized that his tone was heavy, he closed his eyes and restrained himself. Then, he opened his mouth and restrained all the coldness.

"Stand up and let me see where I'm injured."

My body was like a loose frame. I stood up and pushed him away in pain to prevent him from helping me. He was squatting down to examine my knees, raising his eyelids to look at me, mocking himself as he withdrew his hand.

The fall wasn't serious, but it was due to blood. The wound was n' t deep enough because I was pressed against the broken wine jar and my wrist was cut. Threads of fine blood seeped out.

At first Lu Xuan didn't notice the injury on his hand. As soon as he climbed out of the wine cellar Lu Xuan he grabbed me for fear that I would run away again. I broke out in cold sweat from the pain. With a muffled groan, he did n' t cry out for pain. He noticed my abnormality and slightly released his hand and found that his palm was dyed red.

His gaze was fixed on his hand for a long time. His expression was uncertain. He was probably dissatisfied with my silence. His tone was hoarse and low, suppressing his anger.

"You're so tolerant?" "You don't even know how to scream in pain?"

I thought it was me who should be angry. Why was it that I was wrong? I stared at him with my mouth closed and silently resisted him.

It wasn't hard for him to say anything for me. He took me into the room to clean up my wounds.

In the dimly lit hall, Lu Xuan once again examined my wound with the light. After flipping through a layer of skin, one could vaguely see flesh and blood. The surroundings were green and purple, which seemed to be quite troublesome.

It wasn't realistic to go to the hospital in the middle of the night. Fortunately, the medicine boxes at home were quite complete. He Lu Xuan cleaned all the wounds on every part of my body in a proper manner. He did it carefully and with a bit of a doctor's aura.

At this moment, he was so calm and gentle. It reminded me of the same way he was when he heard Grandma's attending doctor explain his illness. It was from then on that I realized that he seemed to have an overly ordinary understanding of medicine, but I did n' t know why.

I was willing to say anything to him. He was in control of everything I had, but I knew very little about him.

I looked at the wrapped hand and suddenly said," If Lu He didn't leave, would n' t you be with me?"

He tidied up the medical kit and remained silent. I retracted my gaze and smiled self-deprecatingly." Yes, if Lu He are still here, what can I do?"

Lu Xuan threw away the item in his hand and sat on the sofa." What are you talking about?"

"I'm not stupid. You do n' t dare to face your own heart." I decisively interrupted him," Lu Xuan, I' m going abroad..."

My tone was cold. I looked at me with Lu Xuan gaze, as if I wanted to judge the truth from my expression.

"I lied to you that day. Actually, my mother told me where Grandma was. As a condition, I had to study piano abroad. But did you know? Because of you, I almost changed my mind. Just a few days ago, I was still thinking that since it wasn't the first time I had resisted my mother, I was just playing around and losing my letter. As long as I could be with you, I did n' t care about this. "It wasn't until just now that I realized how boring it was for me to waver."

I turned around and looked straight at him. I could see the coldness and coldness in his eyes. At the same time, I also used the coldness in his eyes.

"It was the day we went back to City B from Grandma's house. I saw you come out of the house in panic and did n' t even have time to change your clothes. When I came back..." I suddenly heard myself choked up and touched my face. It turned out that I was crying, and my heart sank.

"When you come back, tell me you want to be together. You appear in front of me again and again when I need it most. You encourage me when I retreat. You support me unconditionally and condone all my shortcomings. You are worried that I will even make such a promise to give me everything I want... Because of all this, I never hide my love for you, but when I know that you have someone in your heart that I can never forget, I..."

I was crying as I made a statement. I couldn't help but bury my face in my hands. I could n' t forgive myself for being a narrow-minded person. I couldn't put myself down for the so-called love. Lu Xuan had never lied to me. It was because I could n' t accept his incomplete heart. At least not now.

I silently shed tears, tears flowing through the gaps between my fingers, gathering and dripping onto my toe, making a patter.

The old residence was unprecedentedly deserted, even though it was not empty at this moment.

Lu Xuan lifted my buried head, and a cold feeling passed through my fingers to my skin." Xiao Jiu, I said I would give you everything you want. That's not a lie."

I looked at his deep but sad eyes with tears in my eyes and said with great difficulty," Including... leaving you?"

Lu Xuan rubbed my two thumbs on my cheek, wiped away the tears that had remained on it, and then leaned over to hug me into my bosom. She whispered in my ear," If you're not willing to be by my side, if you feel unhappy because of me, I will... I will grant you my wish."

After saying that, he gently kissed me on the forehead." So don't cry. I' m even more reluctant to let you go."

The relationship between Lu Xuan and I ended like this without a hitch. It had begun to be unclear to begin with. The process was still sweet and it ended very happily. It was just a little regretful. I wanted to hold on to the end from the beginning, and it would be a long life.

We stayed in the old residence for the whole night. The next day, we flew together. He took the first class flight. This time, I stubbornly went to economy class. He didn't stop me. He did n' t even touch my face when he got off the plane. He even saved the embarrassment of parting ways and saying goodbye.

We weren't dragging our feet. When things were coming to an end, we should decisively let it end. When things were broken, we would suffer chaos. Now, he felt that Pan Duo Min description was right. Lu Xuan and I were both cold-hearted people.

It wasn't that they did n' t have feelings, but they didn't want to be manipulated. We knew that life was too long, and no one could take over another's life. At our age, apart from love, there were many things worth pursuing.

With that thought in his heart, he really didn't mention Pan Duo Min. He really did n' t mention people during the day and ghosts at night.

I met her at the entrance of the airport. She got off the bus and I was still worried about how to get a taxi.

The last time she saw Pan Duo Min was probably in Lu Xuan's studio. It did n' t count as a meeting. I recognized her through my voice. She said fiercely that I was Lu He substitute...

Of course, she didn't know what I was thinking. She took off her sunglasses and greeted me. It was like she had seen an old friend she had n' t seen for many years. She was much more calm and confident.

I was thinking what would happen if I told her that Lu Xuan and I broke up? A disdainful sneer? He was still mocking her.

"You're..." I sized up the luggage in her hand and looked at her.

She smiled generously." As you can see, I want to go abroad and continue my life that should have been sparkling."

I felt a chill in my heart. I thought that after the last time, she would continue to tangle with Lu Xuan, but she wanted to make sense so quickly. It was me who looked down on her. She was far deeper than I thought.

I smiled." Then I should congratulate you!" 0

"Alright, Lu Yan, the hypocrisy doesn't suit you. I know that you don't like me from the bottom of your heart, so I do n' t think I'm much of a fan of you. It didn't mean that I lost to you when I left. I lost to Lu Xuan and could n' t take him after so much effort. It was my failure. "But you don't have to be the final winner. You' d better keep a close eye on him. Be careful that I'll see you as a joke in the future. I wo n' t show mercy."

She patted me on the shoulder and brushed past me. I kept a faint smile from beginning to end. Not only did she lose to Lu Xuan, I was also a complete loser. When she walked far away, I let out a dejected sigh. I lost love. If only Lin Ling were here at this time.

When they returned home, their parents and Lu Chenjun were unexpectedly at home. Since the last time they talked to me, their father had been much more passionate towards me. It should be said that he was more passionate than ever. It was as if he was going to fill up the vacancy for more than ten years. As soon as he entered the room, he greeted and poured water. It scared me so much that I didn't even dare to sit.

She turned around and winked at the Lu Chenjun who was sitting on the sofa watching the show. What was going on? Not only did the other party not move, he even smiled awkwardly as he wanted to watch the show.

I took a deep breath and turned around." Dad, where's my mom?" "I have something to discuss with her."

My father was stunned by my question. He put down his water cup and said," She's in the backyard. Are you going to talk to her about going abroad?"

I nodded." Then I'll go."

"Yan Yan," I paused for a moment when I heard that. My father only continued when he saw me turn around

"Daddy wants you to think about this matter again. Actually, it's not like you have to go."

I understood what he meant. After Grandma left, his father had come to a complete realization. He was using these methods to tell me that he was my backer.

Although I looked indifferent, I was deeply moved." Thank you, Dad." "I've already considered the matter of going abroad. I wanted to go there myself."

He couldn't say anything since I was so persistent. He lowered his head and waved his hand to follow me.

My mother was teasing birds in the backyard. When I saw this scene, I felt that it was an illusion. This kind of leisure was never something my mother would have.

"He's here."

I nodded and stood in front of her. She teased the bird for a while and changed things for the bird. After everything was done properly, she turned to look at me.

"Is everything over?" It was obvious that Mom's idea had n' t changed. It was just that she was more restrained than before, so she didn't have to be aggressive against me.

"As long as you finish the formalities, I can leave immediately, but..."

As soon as I said that, she heard the following words and raised her eyebrows." But what?"

"Please accept my three requests."

She raised her head to look at my determined eyes and narrowed her eyes as usual to look at me. However, she didn't say why I had asked her for such words. Instead, she motioned with interest for me to continue.

After a few twists and turns, this summer vacation, which was as long as half a lifetime, was nearing its end. Some things had changed overnight, while others had settled down and entered the right path.

I didn't need to go to school. Even the procedures were handled by my mother. When the school started, everyone else was busy, so I was the only one who had nothing to do.

He had nothing to do. He practiced the piano every day and started to pick up the things he had before. After two days of learning, he was quite fluent.

Just like before, he pushed open the French window and walked into the backyard. After a heavy rain, all the plants were washed clean. The air carried the afternoon heat and the smell of grass and mud.

A few drops of rain fell on the rocking chair, and I ignored it. I sat down and shook the rocking chair to empty my mind. At this time, Lu Xuan shadow would appear unexpectedly.

The words he had said to me that night were still vivid in his mind. His voice, eyes, and actions were all surging in his mind. When he hugged me and said that he wanted to help me, how much patience should he have to endure to be calm and calm. He would never expose his emotions and hide his pain in his heart. He would let it rot and rot, unlike me, when he was unhappy, he would cry and make a scene if he wanted to, and he would always indulge me...

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