514: Ai and Guiying (1)

Ai and Guiying (1)

Jun was seated on the couch with a bleak expression as a deep silence ensued. His mind had a million trains of thoughts but at the same time, there was nothing.He could visualize that scene again when he had seen the fortune cards the mystical woman showed them at the carnival.1

Guiying and the shadow or the other 'Guiying' within her were tied to a string like a puppet. And like a puppet Guiying was played.

His hands were trembling thinking of all the tragedies he and Ai had to suffer.

Zixin lost his memories and had to live a lonely life where he never met Guiying again.

Yunru was devastated. Sky had fallen from its glory.

The whole Liu family had broken apart and Jin had to die and so did Nana…

Jun bit his lower lip until it bled slightly.

He thought about Ai's past life's death and wondered…

Zhan Yahui did it, didn't she? From the beginning to the end, whether it's Ai or me, Zhan Yahui was behind everything and everyone's tragedy.

She murdered Ai…She must have killed Xing Bi too…

He couldn't even begin to describe the rage bubbling in his heart.

The same animosity was burning violently in 'Guiying's' heart as well. Not just 'her,' but Guiying within her felt an incredible pang of sadness welling within her. She had trusted Zhan Yahui as her mentor and well-wisher but that same woman had violently and cruelly betrayed her trust.

She cried and tears escaped 'her' eyes. 'Her' heart and mind was filled with chaos as the emotions of both Guiying's overflowed inside them. 

Guilt, anger, grief, helplessness - everything has reached to its maximum level of their tolerance until 'she' felt the world spinning in front of 'her' eyes.

"Guiying!"

"Guiying!" Zixin and Ai exclaimed at once.

Zixin carried her in his arms and quickly laid 'her' on the couch. He had noticed instantly that something was wrong with 'her.'

"Guiying…A-are you alright? I will take you to the hospital!" Zixin worriedly rubbed her palms as 'she' looked in a delirious state.

Ai brought a glass of water, but 'she' refused to drink.

"Leave…" 'she' gasped breathlessly and tiredly mumbled. "Leave me alone…"

Zixin and Ai violently shook their heads.

'She' gritted her teeth. "Oh shut it…It already…already feels such a mess inside my head. I don't want to see your crying faces and feel more miserable!"

Ai sniffled. "But you are crying too."

"That is that idiot inside me! Do you think I…" pain shot between her brows and 'she' furrowed them, "...I will cry like some weak and helpless woman…?"

Ai stared at 'her', her eyes reddening with tears. "No. 'You' are not any weak and helpless woman."

Zixin nodded hard.

"In fact, after Mom…'you' are the strongest woman that I have known. And I…" Ai clasped her trembling hands together, "I feel miserable that I didn't get to know 'you' sooner."

'Guiying' narrowed her eyes but that only brought more pain to her temples, so 'she' gave up.

"I am sorry…" With her head lowered, Ai's tears flowed endlessly, staining her dress wet. 

Jin gave a sideways glance to Jun and whispered, "You don't want her to stop crying?"

"It's fine," Jun stared dead straight in front of him, expressionless but deadly. "There is an entire lifetime of grief in those tears. It was bound to escape one day. She needs to let everything out today."

Jun glanced at Zixin and silently communicated that they should leave them alone for a while.

Which Zixin really didn't want to, seeing Guiying and 'her' in such a state. He wanted to be there beside them until they were fine and healthy. He pursed his lips for a moment and with a heavy heart agreed in the end.

Zixin whispered his question as they were leaving, "When can I come back?"

Jin's brow twitched. "When Zhou Ai wants to. Then you are free to stick to Cai Guiying like glue all you want."

Like glue…

Zixin nodded at that proposition.

"Don't you nod to that! What the heck were you imagining?" Jin gritted his teeth. 

Zixin frequently kept glancing back towards 'Guiying' in hopes that 'she' might stop him from leaving.

Jin grimaced. "Look ahead or you will hit your head. It's already enough that it's been hit once."

Twice if we consider the past life, he silently added.

"I might get my memories back."

"Yeah let's stay a little away from that dangerous experiment," he said with a twitching smile.

Jun, Jin and Zixin quietly left the office, shutting the door behind them.

Ai wished to hold 'Guiying's' hand, but she couldn't muster the courage. Instead, she kept her distance.

'Guiying' broke the silence. "You are free to leave too. Wait, I am the guest here…I should leave…"

'She' tried to get up but Ai pushed her back. "Don't do that or you will feel sick again," she anxiously expressed her concern.

'Guiying' who was pushed back with force widened her eyes. "The hell! When did you get so strong?"

Or maybe this body is too physically weak? 

Ai slightly jolted and apologized. "I-I am sorry…"

'Guiying' waved her hand but then was speechless to see Ai crying with full force. 'Her' mouth violently twitched. "You just pushed me a little bit. Don't cry like I am dead. You are so annoying."

Ai wanted to laugh because 'her' expression was just too funny but she couldn't when she thought of all the grievances they had faced for this whole time.

Ai trembled and cried harder. "I am sorry…"

"You are making my headache even worse. Say something other than a sorry. Is that the only word in your dictionary?"

"But I don't know…" she sniffled, "what to say besides that. I was all ignorant…ignorant about your childhood and your past. I never realized how much pain you were in or how much Cai Lingyun hurt you. Guiying was always…smiling like a bright sun…But I failed to see the darkness behind it. I have been a terrible friend, Guiying…" her shoulders quivered. "I have been a terrible friend who knew nothing about you. That's why please let me apologize. That's the only way I can atone for my ignorance."

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