2883: Stop Punishing Yourself!

Stop Punishing Yourself!

"Don't be sad, okay? My heart aches to see you like that."2

She continued to sob uncontrollably.

She did not bawl. Instead, she clung onto the bed and gripped the bedsheets tightly with both hands. She crumpled the bedsheets and gritted her teeth, trying to hold back her tears, but she could not control them at all.

It was as if the entire world had completely fallen apart!

It only took one look to clearly see how devastated she was!

She had a nagging feeling that everything that was happening before her was just a dream. After she had cried enough, she'd wake up from the dream and find Gu Xingze still alive!

However, every time she closed her eyes, the scene in the parking lot would repeat itself!

Every time she thought of Gu Xingze in her arms, struggling to keep his eyes open and making every effort to speak those words, his weak but smiling expression seemed to say, "Shishi, you must not be sad. I have no regrets."

But alas, she did!

She was sad!

She was devastated!

She could not believe that Gu Xingze would die just like that!

She did not believe the rubbish that people said, about how people would go to heaven after they died!

Once a person died, they would truly cease to exist!

However, there were still so many beautiful things in this world that he had never experienced before!

His life shouldn't have ended so abruptly!

If he were to fly to America, perhaps it would be the start of a brand new life. He might be able to welcome a new life, meet a girl who would love him and whom he would also love equally. They would grow from knowing each other, to loving each other, then finally holding hands for the rest of their lives!

In her heart, Gu Xingze always had a beautiful image.

He should deserve happiness… he should deserve happiness!

But now?

It was exactly as Gu Xingze had said.

He arrived into a cold world, lived a cold and lonely life, and finally fell into a cold and lonely sleep.

Yun Shishi cried her eyes out in despair. Even though she did not cry loudly, she was on the verge of collapsing!

Hua Jin could not take it anymore. With reddened eyes, he knelt beside her and hugged her shoulders tightly. "Sister, if I could bear this for you, I'd do it willingly! But don't force yourself anymore, alright?!"

His hot tears fell on her shoulders.

Hua Jin also started crying sadly.

"The dead can't be brought back to life! No one would have expected such a thing to happen! I know that Senior Xingze liked you and held you dear to his heart. Even if he had to choose all over again, I think he would still make the same choices! However, he wouldn't want you to punish yourself like this! This isn't your fault! Why don't you cut yourself some slack?!"

She cried and shook her head, unable to say a word.

She cried, and so did he.

She cried, because she was sad that Gu Xingze was gone.

He cried, because he realized that now, Gu Xingze would forever be a thorn in her heart.

This thorn would probably never be removed, and every time she breathed, she would feel the pain deep within her being.

However, he could not allow her to continue crying like this!

She must not cry, not only because of her eyes!

It would also be because of the unborn and undeveloped child within her. She must not cry like this!

Hua Jin hardened his heart. With a strike from his hand, Yun Shishi felt a sharp pain at the back of her neck, and her vision went dark as she passed out!

She fell into his arms, her face still wet with fresh tears!

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