49: Identity

Identity

Date 21 Mar 23210

Time 16:05

Location Sky Blossom City, Fine Gold Resort, Hot Springs Bathhouse no.02

All my clients are equal to me and I do my best to get the maximum desired result for their budget, this is my ethics and respect towards my profession. Therefore I am particularly picky about my client's since client's like Jaya always made unreasonable demands which I would not have had to accommodate in my past life, but in this life where my status I was not privileged to be picky when it comes to the customer. 

Being partial towards clients seemed to be going against some of the promises that I had made to myself when I was overwhelmed with the joy of my rebirth and getting a second chance. The promises I made mostly involved me not repeating the mistakes of my past life. But my past life was full of mistakes if I planned to avoid them in this new world it was going to be tough. I had my pride, ethics and blah blah but it was not worth making an enemy of Jaya, which would then led to me once again repeating most of my past life mistakes. I had to know when to be flexible if I wanted to lead a peaceful and quiet life.

In my last life, I grew to the point where I could decide the lives of millions of people and overthrow a regime with a word. World leaders feared me and trembled in my presence. 

That was too much power for an ignorant mortal to hold, like all the tyrants before me I was also corrupted by the power I hold. People's life and dignity meant nothing to me, if I chose to save one then the others would die. I could not look at the world with morals or have humanity. I had to be impartial and choose which was the best for the entire humanity. 

Finally, the means stopped mattering to me and the results of my choice started to define my means. All that mattered to me was to keep the majority satisfied and hell with the minority. 

I would be lying if I said compassion never bothered me, sometimes tears roll out of my eyes without my knowledge but I never had time to acknowledge or wipe them. Somebody had to make these choices, I never stopped to ask why it has to be me the one to make these choices. I guess I just enjoyed the feeling of playing God. 

In the final moments of my last life, the horrible mistakes I had committed flashed before my eyes but I did not regret it cause my regret could not change anything it would just demean the sacrifice of those who believed in me and my dream. 

I just came to terms with them since I no longer had to shoulder the burden of entire humanity on my shoulder. But since I got a second chance I have resolved myself that in this life I would lay back and just enjoy life as a new person.

"About my origin card creation, I do not have many demands as long as it is not a trash card you have nothing to worry about. As for the fees for your services as a card creationist, I will pay you 100 million only if you are successful in the creation of my origin card. And don't worry about ingredients, the company will provide them for free.." Said Jaya arrogantly.

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