1375: Without the care of consequences.

Without the care of consequences.

"Me? She was traumatized because of me?" Li Xue didn't understand but Feng Shufen nodded.  2

While her brows tugged in a frown, she asked, "What are you saying? I can't be the reason." Even though Li Xue has lost her memories and doesn't even get a simple glimpse of her remembrance of her past, still the bond she feels with the little one was a little too special. She couldn't bear to take the blame of bringing the innocent soul to such a pitiful situation. 

When Feng Shufen saw her frowning, he could exactly read the thoughts running in her mind. He knew he shouldn't trigger her but he also knew that he can't simply let her think of the things herself. The warning in her gaze was something he can't ignore. So, in the end he thought to tell her as much as it was suitable for her.

"She calls you Mama. Seeing you getting hurt right in front of her eyes, do you think it was easy for her?" He said, and Li Xue stared at him wordlessly. 

She doesn't know how she lost her memories. No one ever told her. When she woke up after a week long, the only things she came to realize was the memory loss and the scar of a gunshot near her collar bone.  Other than that everything was gone. 

"When I was shot, she was there?" She asked, feeling a knot in her stomach. That painfully twisted realization of the tacit acceptance in the silence of the Feng Shufen. 

"She was there and witnessed everything with her own eyes. First, the stab, then the gunshot and then your fall from the cliff. Everything has affected her cruelly, bringing her a tough trauma. But don't worry, it's not incurable. Overtime, she will get better. Especially with you around, she will overcome the trauma all easily." 

He said and even though he was assuring her, Li Xue was not at ease. She slowly turned to the little one and asked, "I was shot, stabbed and then was pushed off the cliff and she was there all the time. That only means that I am responsible for her condition. What happened that day? Who did all of that to me? And why did I bring WiWei to such a dangerous place? These things simply do not make any sense." 

She asked while trying to recall her memories but the moment she did that she grimaced with pain. While her expressions scrunched, she firstly went to put WeiWei carefully on the bed and then held her head in pain. 

When Feng Shufen saw her like that, he immediately reached her side. His brows frowned, knowing what she had tried to do. "The doctors have asked you to not force yourself. Are you trying to kill me with guilt now?" He said, his tone coming very frustrated. 

Li Xue could feel his frustration too. But she also could sense that the frustration he was venting out was not at her but on himself. He was angry with his own helplessness.

"Why would you be guilty? It's me who is the guilty one. Not only I forgot you all but have also made her suffer so much. I caused her all this and now she is the one taking the pain." 

"You didn't cause her all that. So you don't have to blame yourself. You instead went there to save WeiWei. Without you with her, more harm might have come." He said and then walked to the nearby drawer to get some medicines out. "Here take this. You will feel better." 

Li Xue didn't understand at first but when she saw the medicines in his hand, her brows quirked up slightly as she asked, "These medicines are the same as what doctor has prescribed me. How did you have them here?" 

"Have it." Feng Shufen didn't explain, rather gave her the medicine before extending her a glass of water.

Li Xue didn't take the glass of water but raised her brows at him. To which Feng Shufen spoke, "Don't ask too much. These medicines were bought for you, so have it." 

He said and Li Xue looked down at his hands before giving a small smile. "You have arranged all of it here and yet you were trying to make me believe that you were all stranger to me. Do you think it was believable?" She said before taking the medicines and swallowing it down with water. 

"..." Feng Shufen didn't reply to her, instead simply stayed to see her having her medicines first. Once she was done, he took the glass back and then said, "Don't think about all this too much. Your condition getting triggered will be hazardous." 

He said and was about to turn around to leave for a moment, when Li Xue asked in a soft but deep tone behind , "If it won't trigger my condition, will you tell me what really happened to me that day and who was so cruel to me and why?"

Feng Shufen paused in his steps. He stayed there for a second without turning back. Li Xue also waited patiently. Although the chance seemed to be bleak, she still expected to hear from him. 

But when the chances are bleak, people shouldn't keep too many expectations. After a moment, Feng Shufen looked over his shoulders and said, "You have taken the medicines just now. You should rest without giving any stress to your mind. Sleep. I will be back after completing something." 

He said and Li Xue pressed her lips in a thin line. But then she hummed and nodded to him. She understood his concern. It was just that now she was getting impatient. If he can't tell her the things, she would now have to find the ways on her own, without caring about the consequences. 

"Fine. Go and do your work then. I will stay here with WeiWei." She said andFeng Shufen left. Only after he was gone did she take out her phone and made a call. 

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