181: You're Attracted To...

You're Attracted To...

After calming down, Huang Shuyi looked at Lin Zhen, "Take it from here."2

"After failing to make the goal, you're throwing the ball in my court?" Lin Zhen was amused at Hyson's words but didn't forget to taunt Lin Zhen.

"What are you saying?" Huang Shuyi feigned shock and innocence. "I just want you to share something about your first crush to enlighten our young one."

Lin Zhen didn't continue to tease Huang Shuyi as he seriously thought about his first crush. A soft smile bloomed on his face as he shared with them, "She used to come to my mom's flower shop every single day to buy a bouquet of roses right after school. And I used to follow her around like a fool."

"Oh! I never thought our Zhen Ge loved someone from afar," said Fang Yiwen playfully bumping his shoulder with Lin Zhen. "Zhen Ge, that's sweet."

"Sweet?" repeated Hyson and everyone's expressions changed when Hyson opened his mouth. They just knew it was bound to not end well and Hyson didn't disappoint them as well as he continued, "You literally stalked a girl daily from school. How is that sweet? That's a crime!"

Unlike Fang Yiwen and Huang Shuyi, Lin Zhen wasn't angry after hearing Hyson's words. He had a remarkable level of acceptance and patience. So, he only shook his head at Hyson but didn't show any signs that he was displeased with Hyson's remarks.

"Fai, don't be so cruel," said Huang Shuyi. "Zi Hong, you're next."

Pei Zi Hong stared at Hyson's face for a long moment before speaking, "My first crush was back in kindergarten. I used to pull her hair. I added toothpaste to his sandwich."

"You mean you bullied a girl?" questioned Hyson with raised brows.

Pei Zi Hong's lips twitched, "Haven't you heard that boys always tease the girl they like to get her attention? It's a form of flirting."

"No matter how nicely you say it, bullying is bullying. As I said earlier, stop trying to romanticize everything."

"Well guess what! It worked for me. She is my current girlfriend!" shouted Pei Zi Hong.

Hyson tutted at him, "Then I feel bad for her. Just because she is your girlfriend doesn't justify your bullying. You should ask her once, I'm pretty sure that she still carries the bad experience from her kindergarten that you made her go through." Pei Zi Hong suddenly fell silent and Hyson inquired, "What's wrong? Don't have anything to say?"

Pei Zi Hong sighed out, "You're right. She indeed remembers our kindergarten years as a bad memory. And it's all because of me."

Hyson nodded his head, "I knew it. Just because you did it as a joke, doesn't mean the other person took it as a joke."

Lin Zhen suddenly placed a hand on Hyson's shoulder when he felt that Hyson was quite aggressive towards Pei Zi Hong. Hyson turned his head towards him inquisitively, "Yue Fai, is everything okay? Why do I feel like you're quite sensitive towards bullying?"

Hyson pursed his lips when he realized that he let himself show the emotions he had suppressed for far too long now. Or were those really suppressed emotions? After all, he never actively thought about those times.

"Did someone bully our Yue Fai?" inquired Fang Yiwen hesitating a little.

"It's been too long," Hyson waved his hand nonchalantly. "I was just saying that none of you had a good first crush experience. I really don't know why you find it all beautiful."

The rest of them shared a look and tacitly chose to avoid bringing up the topic that Hyson just avoided. But this made them realize how little they actually knew about Hyson even after staying together for over five years. 

It wasn't that they were curious to learn more about him, it was just that Hyson always kept his life too private. 

"Coming back to the topic," Huang Shuyi pulled the discussion back from the tense atmosphere. "Xiao Fai, you've really never felt attracted to someone? Just a simple crush?"

Hyson shook his head honestly, "What kind of attraction are we talking about here?"

"Sexual attraction!" Huang Shuyi said it straightforwardly. "What other kind of attraction is there?"

"I've been told there are different forms of attractions. For instance, romantic attraction, aesthetic attraction, sensual or physical attraction, platonic attraction, and emotional attraction." Hyson took a pause to take a breath before continuing, "That is why I was confirming." He scratched the tip of his nose as he said, "And to answer your question, no! I've never felt sexually attracted to anyone in my life."

"Not even a single girl caught your attention?" asked Pei Zi Hong and Hyson shook his head.

"Then perhaps..." Fang Yiwen began before taking a step back. "Maybe... Men?"

Hyson noticed his movement of stepping back as he snorted, "You're thinking too highly of yourself Yiwen Ge. I'm equally not interested in men or women."

Lin Zhen frowned at his reply. "Yue Fai, by any chance, are you...?"

He couldn't find the way to say it and couldn't bring himself to say it for some reason. But Hyson didn't think as much like him as he helped him by answering his unasked question, "You're on the right track, Zhen Ge. I'm asexual. That is why I've never been sexually attracted to anyone in my life."

He saw how shocked the others were to hear him say it so calmly and didn't know what to say. Hyson smiled at them as he said, "That is why this role is quite a challenge for me. I really have no idea how to make people believe through a screen that I'm in love when I don't even know myself what it feels like." He suddenly thought back to how he always lectured Raelle and his smile deepened, "I always tell my best friend to practically experience everything. But I am not that different from her. We both only have the theoretical knowledge of love."

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