622: Why He Jian Didn't Return Mo Roulan's Love?

Why He Jian Didn't Return Mo Roulan's Love?

Mo Roulan blinked furiously when she felt her own eyes tearing up but her voice was still choked when she called out

"Jian"

He Jian didn't say anything.

He held Mo Roulan's waist and pulled her closer. He hid his face deeper into her neck.

Mo Roulan's tears finally fell down when she felt the wetness against her neck.

He was crying.

"Jian…don't cry."

She whispered softly.

Seeing him cry broke something inside her.

Perhaps it happened when you see someone so strong and calm always. When such a person breaks down, you start to feel that the world is finally falling apart.

"I used to see children with their parents. I had a father…but I used to wonder where my mother was. Dad never told me."

Mo Roulan listened to him silently. His voice was hoarse as he continued

"Then I heard one day that she had left me when I was one year old…because she wanted money instead of me and father. Since that moment, I hated her. I hated the women because I started to think that all of them were greedy for money. I didn't believe in love after that. You know Lanlan…Dad was still justifying her in front of Grandpa. He said it was a contract marriage so she left when the deal was complete. After seeing how my father devoted all his life to only one woman foolishly…I didn't want to fall in love with anyone. But she…I never knew that I hated her for all the wrong reasons. I saw her after so many years but she doesn't even remember me."

He Jian stopped speaking and hugged Mo Roulan more tightly in his arms.

On the other hand, Mo Roulan was completely still.

'I can't love. Love doesn't exist. It is just an infatuation of yours.'

She remembered his words from her previous life.

She remembered how she had confessed her love for him again and again but he would always look at her with a pair of eyes filled with disappointment.

'Do you want money? Is that why you are doing this? How much do you want? Tell me …you don't need to do all this.'

The day he had said these words to her in return for her confession…she had felt so humiliated as well as confused.

Why was it so hard for him to believe that she didn't love him?

She never understood that. She never came to know of the reason in her past life but this time she did.

So it was his mother.

His parents' past stopped him from believing in her love.

But was it fair for her?

But could she blame him?

More questions piled up with ones she had inside her heart before but who will answer them?

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Their dinner was indeed sent inside the room.

He Jian refused to have it but Mo Roulan somehow fed him. When they finished, the nurse came and reminded Mo Roulan about the medicines.

Mo Roulan gave He Jian his medicines and then she laid down on the bed to sleep.

But sleep was far away from her eyes.

Mo Roulan stiffened when she felt a hand on her waist.

"I just want to hug you while sleeping. Can I? If you feel uncomfortable then don't say 'yes'."

He Jian said immediately.

A moment later, Mo Roulan's body relaxed and she herself turned to put her hand on his arm. He Jian kissed her forehead before he closed his eyes. His lips were only a few inches away from her forehead.

They slept in each other embrace.

Their eyes were closed but none of them was sleeping.

Both of them were lost in their own thoughts.

Mo Roulan was still thinking about all those unanswered questions while He Jian…He Jian was planning how he would make He Zhing and He Juan suffers.

The next morning when Mo Roulan woke up she was still held by He Jian. However, when she raised her head she saw that He Jian was already awake. 

He Jian looked at her. The coldness in his eyes vanished immediately and he smiled as he looked at Mo Roulan.

"Lanlan, did you sleep well?"

"Yes, did you?"

Mo Roulan asked in response.

She was relieved to see that he was behaving normally again.

He Jian hummed.

When Mo Roulan turned to get out of the blanket, He Jian held her arm and said softly.

"Rest some more."

However, Mo Roulan shook her head.

"I need to go to the office. I need to submit my designs soon."

"Grandma won't say anything. You should rest at home today."

Mo Roulan paused when she heard this.

Indeed, Ji Zhen wouldn't say anything.

"What are you thinking?'

He Jian asked softly when he saw that she didn't say anything for a long time.

"I am thinking if I should find another job."

Mo Roulan said honestly. However, He Jian's reply was also immediate

"No! Why would you do that?"1

Mo Roulan sighed. She turned to look at him.

"He Jian…I really wanted to learn new things while doing this job but seeing how soft your grandmother is with me…I am afraid that I will not learn a single new thing."

He Jian went silent at that.

A few moments later, he held Mo Roulan's hand. Locking her fingers with his, he caressed the back of her hand and said gently

"I understand. You go and explain to Grandma the same thing. I am sure that he will understand as well."

Mo Roulan smiled as she get down from the bed. She got down before He Jian could catch her and said 

"That means I can go. Then I will go and get ready."

"Lanlan…."

He Jian called out but Mo Roulan had already stepped inside the bathroom.

He Jian sighed as he shook his head. From the bedside table, he picked up his phone and called Chu Feng.

If Lanlan was not here then he will only get bored on his own.

So he better ask Chu Feng to bring office files and do office work at home.

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