349: 7.39 You're Not Aiden

7.39 You're Not Aiden

Moshe was confused. Very, very confused. He had no idea what Aiden was talking about to make him so emotional. Whatever it was, it seemed like the man was truly remorseful. But what confused him more was his own reaction.  2

Angry, of course. Moshe was his owner, he had done a thorough background on his pet but still, there was just so many things about Aiden that remained as a mystery up until this day. There was someone important in his pet's heart enough to make him call out to them when he was delirious. How could he not be angry?!

But piled atop of the boiling anger was a strange, unfamiliar ache that slowly tugged on his heart. It felt sore like pressing on a bruise and the pain would persist for some time even when you already pulled away until gradually… it turned numb. But still, you couldn't ignore the bruise and found yourself pressing on it again. Hence, the cycle of pain, soreness and numbness repeated. Why was he feeling like this? Don't tell him that he would be so foolish as to have his heart ached for this disloyal pet who dared to cry for another person!

Moshe was angry, distressed and concerned. Fear still lingered on his heart, courtesy to the time when Aiden kept on pushing him away again and again, uncaring of his own bleeding wounds. He had no idea that a single person could evoke emotions deep within his heart like this. But Aiden had always done it, hadn't he…? He had transformed Moshe until he couldn't quite recognize himself anymore. But the most irritating thing was, that person was currently mourning for somebody else! 

Moshe suppressed the irritation and carefully patted Lu Yizhou's head. "If you keep crying like this, I won't forgive you."

The effect was immediate as Lu Yizhou's body stilled. He even ceased breathing. Good, Moshe hummed, still as obedient as always. 

Slowly, Moshe guided him back until his legs bumped against the bed. With just a single push, Lu Yizhou fell backward with a thump, groaning as the quick movement made him dizzy again. 

Moshe climbed up the bed on one knee and hovered above him, his gaze inscrutable. "Rule number four." He said whilst grabbing Lu Yizhou's chin, forcing the glazed misty eyes to focus on him. "No more sorrys except when I demand you to."

He instinctively loathed to hear that word, for some reason he couldn't comprehend.

Lu Yizhou blinked and to Moshe's surprise, his silly dazed look actually morphed into a smile! Moshe's brows furrowed. There was nothing funny in his sentence so why… 

And this smile, it was similar to that time when he 'played' with Lu Yizhou for the first time. A genuine smile, so gentle that it melted his silver eyes into a sea of glittering silvery stars. Moshe's heart decided to betray him by picking up its pace, especially when Lu Yizhou stretched out a hand to cup his cheek with so, so much tenderness and love.

"Mn," he said. "No more sorrys between us. I forgot."

The lines on Moshe's forehead grew deeper at that. "Look at me, Aiden." He loomed above Lu Yizhou, seething. "Look at me and tell me who I am. Because I won't forgive you if you dare to think of another person when you're with me." 

"You're you..." His nose wrinkled lightly. Cute. No, snap out of it, Moshe! "No matter what kind of identity you take, no matter what appearance you have… you will always be you."

What was he saying…? However, before he could follow up with another question, Lu Yizhou started to look uncomfortable with Moshe's grip on his chin. He was squirmish and oh… Moshe blinked and looked down. There was already a huge tent straining against his trousers. 

Previously, his pet had told him that the drug would strip him of his will and consciousness but it didn't sound right. If that's true then how could his pet still converse with him right now…?

And he was clearly struggling to maintain control over himself. Moshe recalled the frenzied state Zion was in and couldn't help but feel suspicious. Even if Kaede had flushed almost all of the drug out of his system, it was still potent enough to turn Aiden into a ravenous beast who would pounce on the first person he saw. Or if he was weak-willed, then his spirit would snap and he could only stew helplessly in lust, waiting for another to fuck him. 

But Aiden… Aiden clearly wasn't included in both. Although delirious, his mind was still working and he had the instinct to protect Moshe from harm. 

Moshe knew that the drug had seeped into Lu Yizhou's veins through his open wound which made it all the more dangerous. He should be helpless, should be going mad with desire, should be fighting to tear everything apart if his wish wasn't fulfilled. But this… 

"Tell me." Moshe's voice softened as he wiped the dampness on the corner of Lu Yizhou's eyes. Beguiling, as if he was cajoling the answer out of a three years old child. "Have you had anti-poison training before?"

Lu Yizhou blinked and his mouth opened but all of a sudden, his face suddenly twisted in pain. All colors drained from his face as he wheezed. "Can't… say…"

Moshe frowned. Psychological reaction triggered by a particular keyword? Had his pet been hypnotized before? If so, then he had a lot to work with. Moshe swore that he would unravel every single mystery surrounding Aiden. That was how a responsible owner was supposed to be!

Moshe carefully tucked the doubt into his mind and carded his fingers through Lu Yizhou's sweaty hair in reassurance. "Alright, I won't ask about that anymore." Lu Yizhou visibly let out a sigh of relief. Moshe waited until his breath calmed down slightly before switching to another topic. "Do you know my name?"

Lu Yizhou's eyes sought him, slightly confused. "No…"

Moshe's expression sank. "You don't know your master's name?" Had his condition gotten so bad afterall?

This time, Lu Yizhou's expression cleared. "Moshe… My master's name, Moshe. How can I not know?" 

Moshe wished he could get away to jot down these facts he had gathered about his pet. At first he said he didn't know Moshe's name but when Moshe added 'your master' these two words, he could immediately answer. Was Aiden referring to another person at first? Was it possible that the person whom Aiden was sorry to, the person he was grieving over… had a similar, almost identical appearance to Moshe? And there was also his earlier sentence 'you're finally awake?' indicated that the person similar to Moshe was currently… in a coma?

That was all the possibility Moshe could think of. 

Moshe quickly skimmed through what he had known about Aiden. He was an orphan with only his little sister as a living relative. He had never settled in any relationship before as his time was spent in paying his parents' debt and raising his sister. He had no high education, hadn't gone through any particular skill training, and through a quick inquiry through his former neighbors, they all said that Aiden was a 'honest, sincere young man'. 

But these past few months, Moshe could only see a brilliant mind hidden beneath those piercing silver eyes, superb fighting style, a dangerous, sly and cautious man. Adding on to the charity auction's incident, Moshe's impression on him was shifted yet again: callous, calculating, quick and decisive. 

"You're not Aiden." Unexpectedly, the sentence sounded right when it came off his mouth. Moshe felt a rush of adrenaline shooting up his head, his whole body was tensing with anticipation as he looked into his pet's silver eyes. Moshe recalled the specific question he had thrown earlier and asked, "Tell me who you are. What's your real name?"

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