857: 857: I'm Scared

857: I'm Scared

"When grandfather told me to marry you, I was only here to be your lucky mascot. In fact, our relationship isn't the normal type of marriage. Although we are sharing the same bed, we still haven't gone to the most intimate step until today. I know that you are a gentleman and have been waiting for me, but have you ever thought that… Maybe there won't be a day when I will be ready for you? What will you do then?"2

 Zhan Lichuan looked into Jinqian eyes and said in a stern tone, "In my life, there are no such things as a divorce. If you can't accept me, that would only mean that I haven't done enough for you. If I have done enough, you will definitely be able to accept me with an open heart.

"So, this is not your problem, it is mine. I am not good enough yet, which is why you are still hesitant to open your heart to me.

"However, I will try my best. This is the first marriage for both of us. This is your first time being my wife and it is the first time that I am your husband. We have a long time in the future together. No matter how long it is, it is the journey that we should enjoy and I do enjoy it because I have you by my side. No matter what it is, it will definitely be something memorable."

Zhan Lichuan spoke in a very gentle tone and said it all slowly. His voice made her feel extremely comfortable.

After hearing what he said, Jinqian's heart fluttered.

Previously, no one had ever said this to her.

Even when she liked Du Yanzheng and imagined a future together with him, the man told her he had the same feeling for her. If she could accept him, they would be together forever. He would never accept a betrayal. If she ever betrayed her, he will ruin her, ruin the world and then ruin himself in the end. 

As for the other men… 

Most of them just wanted something from her. Even if it was hiring mercenaries, they still wanted something from her.

Those men didn't count.

Zhan Lichuan was the smartest man that she has ever met, and the way that he treated their relationship was very different from all the men that she had ever met.

"Aren't you afraid that there might be a day where I might leave you? I am only here as a lucky mascot and I have already succeeded in that."

"Of course I am." 

Zhan Lichuan told her the truth and held onto her even tighter. He rested his head on top of Jinqian's like a huge dog, hoping to be loved and begging to not be abandoned.

"But I believe that humans have feelings. Even if you raised a dog, you wouldn't abandon it if it was a good dog. I am a human after all. I believe that if I did a good job, you will definitely accept me one day. Even if you don't, we will still be together as long as you don't abandon me one day. We can just share the same bed like this and talk all night. I'm happy with what I have already."

Zhan Lichuan was such a perfect man, but whenever they were together, he always placed himself in such a low position.

In fact, she had been able to feel Zhan Lichuan's love for her a long time ago, but she just decided to ignore it, since she was only a lucky mascot.

After all, she had already thought of being single her entire life.

But… 

After her rebirth, she still held onto the same principles, but after laying in his arms for so many nights, she started enjoying the love and care that was coming from Zhan Lichuan. She was being so selfish, not giving things that she should offer in return.

She would admit to being a woman who only wanted a good appearance and never felt any lust, but that was in her previous life.

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