190: C190 An Honest Monologue

C190 An Honest Monologue

0In the darkness, Zhu Ruiyan only felt her heart beat faster and her mouth became very sensitive. She felt that all the cells in her body had entered a sleeping state. The only feeling was that his lips were Qin Yizhao's unique breath.

How many times could he not control himself!

After his mind turned into a white light, what swept over was a slowly suffocating feeling. Zhu Ruiyan did not know what to do and patted Qin Yizhao's back. She could not breathe.

"Yanyan, you are really a cute little thing." In an instant, Qin Yizhao's voice was clear and moving. The corner of his mouth curled up into a smile, describing his happy mood at that moment.

"I cannot breathe." Zhu Ruiyan held Qin Yizhao's arm with both hands and suddenly leaned on his shoulder. She panted and breathed heavily.

"You seem to be very happy." Zhu Ruiyan seemed to hear the laughter by her ears and slightly raised her eyes. She looked at Qin Yizhao, who was beaming with happiness. He was actually so happy. Didn't she just buy him a set of clothes? He hugged her and kissed her!

"Of course I'm happy. We, Yanyan, love me so much. We can even bear to feel sorry for a man like me!" Qin Yizhao endured his smile and stared at Zhu Ruiyan's slightly swollen lips.

"Alright, let's go back." Zhu Ruiyan pulled her body back to her seat and whispered.

"I will take you to the outer ring to take a look!" Qin Yizhao smiled and slowly retracted her gaze. It felt really good to kiss her.

His smile was different, and he looked relaxed.

At this moment, the corners of Qin Yizhao's mouth curled up slightly. His smile was so charming. It was not like the smile from his previous work. At this moment, his smile seemed to have an additional feeling and warmth. He looked like he was bathing in the sun, with a warm expression on his face. A warm smile. Everything was so warm that it made one feel as if they had fallen into oblivion.

Even though he was a person who did not care about words and smiles, his smile was so charming. Zhu Ruiyan could feel that he was in front of her today. He was so relaxed! This was probably because when he walked in the workplace, the officials made him tired! In all the fiercely contending official circles, he always did not hold back his words and laugh!

Noticing Zhu Ruiyan's gaze on him, Qin Yizhao smiled gently. He slowly turned his face to the side and glanced at her still red cheeks. The smile on his lips could not help but deepen. "Is there a problem?"

"No!" Although his face was still red, it was no longer as embarrassing as before. He just stared at Qin Yizhao's smiling eyes with a puzzled look. "I was just thinking that you are also an ordinary person, just like us, you have a normal heart. You are the same as us, you yearn for happiness!"

"Idiot, I have a normal heart, is there a mistake?" Qin Yizhao drove the car out and asked as he drove.

"I never dreamed that I would be so close to the big leaders! Never! Never in my dreams!" Sometimes, when I think about it, I think it's just a dream. " Because it's too sweet a fairy tale, and the happiness is too strong. Sometimes, it feels as if it's not real, as if it's a dream! "

"Yanyan." Qin Yizhao was defeated and coldly snorted. His gentle eyes slowly became dim. Finally, he gathered his cold gaze and it made Zhu Ruiyan's hair stand on end. A chill swept over her.

"Huh? Are you angry?" Swallowing her saliva, Zhu Ruiyan smiled and pretended to be a good child.

"You always feel inferior in front of me, so I want to marry you and get your marriage certificate. I will give you the guarantee of your marriage and give you a sense of security." Looking at her smiling face, Qin Yizhao realized that he couldn't even be angry. He raised his eyebrows in defeat and asked helplessly, "Do you not keep your words? Are you lying if you say you won't run away again?"

"Ah?" Zhu Ruiyan was stunned for a moment and then said, "I didn't!"

"Then give me some confidence. No one is more suitable for me than you. Except for you who is with me, who is the dead mother." Qin Yizhao said, "I have seen enough of all the people around me. I have seen enough of the marriage alliance. Marriage alliance is the most unreliable thing. My parents are the marriage alliance! I clearly know what they are hiding under their bright and beautiful marriage alliance. How much bitterness and helplessness do they have? Even though those influential officials and dignitaries in the red wall have a prestigious status, however, under their bright smiles in front of the camera, all they show is a forced smile, always happy in front of others. But behind people, it was even more lonely, you didn't know... These people could all win the Oscar for being the little golden man, and their acting skills were superb. They are all actors! They knew a lot! My dad and my mom have been living separately for ten months a year. But if there is any major event, they will be dressed up for it. My mom intimately holds my dad's arm. Under the camera, they are a happy couple! "

Zhu Ruiyan only understood when she heard him say that every family has a difficult scripture to practice. She had never known that it was like this. So that was how it was! It turned out that his parents were also like this, just like when his mother was with Zhu Jianjun. Although it was a small family, they did not have money or status. His mother even beat him up. She endured it again and again. When she went to work, she still had to force a smile.

As for life, someone once told me that there are two realms in life. One is pain but not words, and the other is smiling without saying a word. Some people are clearly very happy, but they seem to be in pain; some people... They were unfortunate, but they looked happy. It was because those who were too clear-headed could see it too clearly. When one was serious, there would be worries all over one's life. On the other hand, those who were muddled lived simple and crude lives, and they lived in a carefree manner instead. They had found the great boundary of life!

And the management of the relationship between husband and wife was seen by many people. Was it the right choice or the wrong question? Well, that's true, that's not true either. If he had found the right one, it would not mean that everything was fine. It was just a foundation. Building a house on it is the way to run it. There are also some things that can't be built on it in the end. Actually, one could use one's life to manage a marriage and slowly grow old together. It was a very good thing.

Another example was, finding the right person was like planting a seed on a fertile land. Management was like sunshine, rain, and dew, meticulous and meticulous. Whether it was fine farming or not, it would be very different. He didn't remember that it was that Oscar award, seeing an old actor and wife, they were probably in their 70s or 80s, and their faces were full of ravines. Holding hands, they appeared in front of the camera. I was so touched. Tears were about to come out. In that literary circle, how much willpower was needed to resist temptation? How much tolerance and trust was needed to have this scene? Every wrinkle had its meaning. With the beautiful story behind it, that kind of life itself was a living thing. And it's a wonderful novel! "

When Zhu Ruiyan heard his words, she instantly lost her mind!

There were very few such spiritual exchanges between them. It was very rare to talk about such deep feelings. Even if she could feel his feelings for her, the exploration of the body between them was much more than spiritual! Perhaps this was the most primitive way for many couples to express their feelings at the very beginning!

And in the end, feelings also needed a spiritual resonance! Putting away her thoughts, Zhu Ruiyan raised her head and smiled calmly at Qin Yizhao's concerned face. "Zhao! Thank you! Thank you for telling me all this!"

These words buried deep within her heart gradually gave her an unprecedented sense of security. It turned out that he also desired an ordinary and simple love. And all she could give him was a sincere heart, and only the qualities of a virtuous wife and a good mother!

The first time she saw his true heart, it turned out that he was also lonely!

Like herself, he also desired a pair of warm hands and a pair of warm eyes to comfort the tiredness in his heart and the pressure brought by the outside world, as well as a kind of comfort.

"Girl, we're home!" Qin Yizhao glanced at her again. Today, she looked different from the usual her. But it was so real. There was determination in her eyes. He was not sure. When would his little girl be able to become powerful and independent?! However, he believed it! He firmly believed that there would be such a day!

"Alright, let's go home!" Zhu Ruiyan smiled and said.

It was late at night, but Qin Yue sat alone in the office. She looked at the brightly lit city outside the window and could not help but feel extremely lonely.

Although she tried her best to appear unusually calm in front of Zhu Ruiyan and Qin Cheng during the day, when she was left alone, her and Duan Jue's past kept replaying in her mind.

It was impossible for her to not have a shred of memory for this man in her heart. After all, she had so many beautiful times and memories with Duan Jue.

Thinking about her and Duan Jue's past, a smile unconsciously appeared on Qin Yue's face. Perhaps she herself did not notice that in the depths of her heart, Duan Jue, the man whom she loved and hated, could have such a deep influence.

Qin Yue sighed helplessly. She turned her head and looked at the few lunchboxes on the desk that had long since turned cold. She had not eaten a grain of rice since yesterday, because she really felt that she could not eat it. She did not even rest. She chose to use continuous work to stop her thoughts.

As expected, she could only rely on continuous work to temporarily escape and forget these unhappy times. However, there was an end to work, and there was no end to her longing.

Qin Yue had already done all the work that she could or even the imperfect work that she had done previously. Now, she was very tired but her thoughts deliberately went against her and still did not have the intention to stop.

When she thought of Duan Jue, she would think of Liu Jingjing, and of course, the child in Liu Jingjing's womb. If it was said that Liu Jingjing, this woman, could still tolerate it, but that child was undoubtedly the insurmountable gap between Qin Yue and Duan Jue. This gap had completely sentenced Qin Yue and Duan Jue to death. Their love could no longer be salvaged.

Cold tears flowed down Qin Yue's face and slid across her fair face. In front of them, Qin Yue wanted to pretend to be a strong woman. Therefore, she could only allow herself to shed these useless tears in the dead of night.

Qin Yue suddenly felt that it was funny. It turned out that she was really tired of living. In order to maintain her last bit of pride, she could only close the door and lick her wound.

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