1818: Trying To Change

Trying To Change

Ye Xun was a little anxious and lost.1

"How should I change? What did I do wrong? I did all I could for her and would even give her my heart. Isn't that more than enough?"

"Everyone knows how much you love her. But have you ever thought that there's a limit to how much you can love someone?"

"A limit?"

"To put it simply, when two people are in love, they are standing on a balanced scale. Both sides have to give the same to keep the scale balanced," Jing Xi explained. "Try and think back to the time when she loved you, and you were cold to her. The scale was not balanced then as the heavier side was on her. And after Hawaii, you realized you loved her too but she forgot about you. The balance shifted from her side to yours."

Jing Xi took a deep breath and continued, "You tried to give her everything, and the scale shifted even more. And you know how she is now after the explosion. She went back to her old celibatarian self who praises freedom more than anything. Your love is like a rope tying her back. That's why she thinks you're annoying, that's why she chose to stay away from you. In the end, things exploded and she chose to leave you."

After hearing what Jing Xi had to say, Ye Xun seemed to understand where it had all gone wrong. But the most critical problem was what step he should take next.

"Xiaoxi… What should I do then? How can I get her back?"

"There's only one way, and that's to follow the flow."

"Follow the flow? No way! She wants to leave me! Are you telling me to give up on her?"

Ye Xun knew that Huo Sanyan would not come back on her own. Thinking of his future without Huo Sanyan made Ye Xun's heart bleed.

"Calm down! I'm telling you to let nature take its course when you are with her," Jing Xi explained as she kneeled down and grabbed a fistful of sand. "See, if I try to grab the sand with all my force, the sand will just leak through the cracks between my fingers. But if I open my palm and let it sit quietly on it, it will just stay there. Do you get it now? The harder you grab onto a relationship, the faster it leaves you."

Ye Xun stared at the sand, finally realizing his mistake.

"So, you're telling me to not meddle in her business too much?"

"Yes. Doing that will just get you the opposite result. And you have to change your temper and impulsivity too. Be steadier, don't act like a kid all the time."

Ye Xun nodded. "I get it now… I'll try to change."

"Good. Don't contact her for the time being. Give her some time to calm down. I'll try to contact her and set both of you up when things get better."

"Thank you…"

Without any other choice, Ye Xun could only listen to Jing Xi's advice and try to hold himself back.

He also put all of his hopes of bringing Huo Sanyan back on Jing Xi.

After hearing Ye Xun's part of the story, Jing Xi set off to find Huo Sanyan.

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