60: Shen Qianshu, You've Let Me Down

Shen Qianshu, You've Let Me Down

No matter how he begged and urged her to stay, she did not see it.1

Shen Qianshu froze. Feelings from youth were the purest. They grew up together, and if there was no accident, she could imagine how her life would have gone. After graduating from high school, she would travel with Lin Xuan and continue being loved and protected by him. When the time came, they would marry.

Back then when they broke up, Lin Xuan was unwilling to do so. But why would she be willing either?

During the days in France, she read about him from the internet. She yearned for him, yet there was only disappointment.

"I said I wanted the breakup out of anger, yet you didn't give me a chance to explain. I went around searching for information about your whereabouts, wanting to woo you back. I even wanted to travel with you abroad and study together. Yet, you came back with a bulge in your tummy. You left me only for that short period of time, yet you…" Lin Xuan said. "You ruined everything between us."

"Lin Xuan, we grew up together since we were young. I know you more than anyone else. Our feelings for each other had already been left with a little because of Shen Lin constantly finding faults between us. What you were indignant about was me getting pregnant within six months after I left you, huh? You think I left you, so should I have wallowed in self pity and not be able to eat or survive any longer? If you really loved me, why did you question me whenever Shen Lin finds fault with us? If you really loved me, why didn't you dare to go against your parents? The moment they found out that I was a 'fake princess' of the Shen Family, they stopped you from being in contact with me. They wished you would be with Shen Lin. They made you go out with Shen Lin, and the both of you went on dates behind my back. Did you think I didn't know anything about it?"

"What do you know?" Lin Xuan's eyes reddened. Those three years were the most painful and depressing times of Shen Qianshu; it was also his most painful three years. "When we were young, Lin was indeed shrewd and constantly set you up. But what could I do about it? I was still young. I didn't have what it took to protect you. Other than to pretend to comply with them, what else could I do? Why can't you think in my shoes? I scolded you and blamed you, but it was only because I didn't want you and Shen Lin to have any tensions. I did not want the Shen Family to kick you out of the house. I was thinking that once I grew up, we would both study abroad and everything would get better. Why couldn't you even wait for me for six months?"

Shen Qianshu grew up showered with excess love. When she was young, she was a bratty princess who did whatever she wanted at any time she wanted to. She always got her way. With that, Shen Lin was at a loss. Slowly, she began to become obedient and stopped getting into direct conflicts with Shen Lin.

However, fifteen years of spoiling molded an arrogant and proud Shen Qianshu.

She looked helplessly as the family that once belonged to her was taken away by Shen Lin. She also knew that the family originally belonged to Shen Lin, so she had no right to say anything about it. So she backed off and gave in to her, wanting to return Shen Lin everything.

But Shen Lin wanted to snatch Lin Xuan.

Whenever she and Lin Xuan argued over Shen Lin, Shen Qianshu could imagine herself being distanced away from her parents. All of them chose Shen Lin.

She tried all she could to hold on to the relationships.

But the tender shoulders of her eighteen-year-old self could not bear the heavy weight of the emotions.

She was like a deserted lone wolf. When her granny passed away, what else could she do but leave?

"Shen Qianshu, you let me down…" Lin Xuan pointed at her. "Shen Lin told me that you've returned. I was so happy. I was elated. I wore your favorite set of clothes and bought your favorite snacks for you. Yet, I see you… with a big bulge on your tummy. Shen Qianshu, how could you let me down? You hadn't even left for half a year, and you had a bastard in you. How could you do something so disgraceful, you…"

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