1259: C1259 Memories of the past

C1259 Memories of the past

3"I'm not unfamiliar with this place. In the past, he would often bring me here. Sigh. It was all an old story. A long time ago, it was hard to look back on. " She sat down on the sofa and sighed, as if recalling the past.

My heart couldn't help but beat fast. "Have you eaten yet?"

"I ate some snacks I brought!" "No," she said.

"Do you want some more?" "No," I said.

She shook her head. "I'm not hungry after skating. I don't feel hungry after eating all day."

"Then rest." "No," I said.

"You're not sleepy after skating. One day and one night without sleep. " she said again.

Hearing her say this, I suddenly felt a little angry. I walked up to her and took the small bag from her hands.

"What are you doing?" She looked at me.

I didn't say anything as I opened my bag. There were actually five small bags of meth in it. It seemed that she had brought quite a bit of private goods with her.

I took out the five bags of meth and looked at her. "You're so poor. Where did all this stuff come from?"

"I bought quite a few from that damn bastard in the past. As for the rest, there are still a few left, they've all been sold out." "No," she said.

I didn't say anything and went straight to the bathroom.

"Hey — what are you doing?" She got up and followed me.

I used my body to block her. After ripping open the small bag a few times, I poured the poison directly into the toilet. Then, I pressed the water release switch. Splash — The water immediately washed the poison away.

"You're crazy, this is something more precious than gold, you're crazy —" she cried, hitting me hard on the back with her hand.

I spun around and went out of the bathroom and sat on the couch.

She followed me out, still shouting at me as if I had taken her life.

"Shut up —" I shouted.

She stopped, as if frightened by me, and looked at me.

"Using drugs all day long to make yourself neither human nor ghost, do you think that's good?" "No," I said.

"I have nothing now but this thing to support me. Without it, my entire body will have collapsed. This is the support of my life, do you know?" she protested.

"Support? You intend to rely on this to support your life for the rest of your life? Are you planning on making yourself impersonal and a ghost for the rest of your life? Do you know that your life is going to end very soon? " "No," I said.

"So what if I know? I can't leave this thing any more. Without it, I wouldn't be able to live a day. With it, I could at least continue my own life. "Ever since I lost Lee Shun and lost his child, I'm no longer a human. I've been a walking corpse for a long time now, I'm already a ghost." Her voice was somewhat sad and desolate.

For a moment I froze, looking at her.

"This thing is good. If I slip on it, I can forget all the troubles of the world and enter a world of bliss without grief and without pain. However, I can pass the difficult time in my numbness and intoxication." she murmured again.

"But, didn't you come to Hsinghai to find him? Since you want to find him, it means that you have yet to completely extinguish the desire in your heart. The flame of your life force has not yet been extinguished and there is still hope and expectation in your heart. I said, "Think about it. If you really want to live in the light, live in the sun, and recover your body and soul, can you do that by taking more meth? And if you wanted to see him, if you saw him one day, would he still like you if he saw you as a human and a ghost addict? Will he accept you?

And if. If the child that was born and abandoned sees you and his mother one day, and knows that his mother is like this, taking drugs and skating all day, how much damage will the child suffer, will you have the face to face with your own child? "

"Child? "My child?" "Yes, you're right, you're right," she said in a choked voice. "But I know that my child is no longer in this world, that she was thrown into a dustbin on that snowy night, and that there is no hope for her to survive.

Yes, if only my children were still alive in the world. "For my child, I will do anything, I will use my life to make up for what I owe her, but all this is based on the assumption that the past will never come back, that the lost life will never come back."

I bit my lip. I knew I couldn't tell her about Snowy, not now.

She continued, "Yes, yes, if he saw me and knew I was on drugs, he wouldn't accept that I liked me. He'll hate me for taking drugs. Although he likes to play, he is a drug abuser and he has a deep hatred for drug abusers. "

Zhang Mei was obviously talking about the former Lee Shun. The former Lee Shun, she wouldn't have known that Lee Shun had fallen like her, becoming a drug addict.

"I know he will hate me for taking drugs, but I will. "I can't get rid of drugs now, my bones and my blood are already soaked with drugs, I can't get rid of the drug dependence from my spirit to my body. Without drugs, I won't be able to live a day, I'll go crazy." "No," she said.

"As long as you still have hope for your future, as long as your desire for life still exists, as long as you want to see the sunlight in your life, as long as you don't give up on the thought of living, then you can have the chance to live again, to have a healthy body, a healthy spirit, and to get rid of the drugs." "No," I said.

She smiled wryly, "This is obviously impossible. I have been unable to free myself from this for a long time now, and have thought about not skating many times. However, every time, I was unable to defeat myself. There was a demon in my body, a drug fiend, my inner demon, the one that had been lurking in my body, and I couldn't get rid of it, couldn't control it, couldn't control myself.

In fact, I knew that if I could really see him, he would hate me, but I didn't regret it. As long as I could see him once, even if I died right away, it would be worth it. If someone like me dies, I will go to hell. My child is in heaven, so I don't have the face to go to heaven to see her. "

I thought about it and said, "There are a lot of assumptions in life. Some cannot be realized, but some can be realized."

She said, "I know, I know. I know what I would never have seen if it had been only if it had been. And some if, perhaps I will see, but the moment I see, may be the end of my life. But even if it is the end of my life, I am willing to work for that moment. "

I understood what she meant. Her children and Lee Shun.

After a moment of silence, she lit a cigarette and sat down on the sofa, looking at me. She calmed down a little. But, do you know that if you throw away the last of my poison, you will be killing off my life, whether human or ghost. Without this thing, my life will soon come to an end.

I said, "Without drugs, you'll live, and you'll live better."

"You —" She looked at me.

"If you want to see him, if I know where he is, if he can see you, if you want to see him like a normal person, if you want to live with dignity in the future, then you have to stop taking drugs and get rid of your dependence on them." "No," I said.

"But I —" She started to speak, but then stopped.

"If you listen to me, I'll do my best to help you find out where he is. If you insist on continuing to use drugs, then you'll never see him again." I said firmly.

"What are you going to do with me?" She looked up at me.

"Take a bath tonight and get a good night's sleep. Tomorrow, I will come and see you. " I said, "Then I'll arrange your next move."

"But I'm not sleepy at all. I can't get myself to sleep." "No," she said.

"If you're not sleepy, just sit here and watch TV. But you can't leave this hotel." "No," I said.

"What are you going to do about my next move?" "No," she said.

"You'll know when the time comes." "No," I said.

"Are you really doing this for my own good?" "No," she said.

"It wasn't meant to harm you anyway!" "No," I said.

"Why are you being so kind to me? "Did he just think you were his friend?" "No," she said.

"Did I say it was his friend?" "No," I said.

"However, you also didn't say that he is his enemy. The people he socializes with are either his friends or his enemies. I understand that." he murmured.

"Whatever you think. However, you must believe one thing. That is, I will not harm you. The things I do are all for your own good." "No," I said.

"Alright, looks like I still have to believe in you. I really don't seem to have any other choice. I can see that you are a righteous man. Although I know that you are a gangster, but those gangsters also have many righteous men. " "No," she said.

I took a wad of money out of my wallet and placed it on the coffee table. "I suggest you go to the hotel bathroom and have a sauna."

I know that skating and sweating is a good way to get rid of the poison, and steam sauna can sweat a lot.1

She seemed to understand what I meant and nodded. "Okay, then I'll go and stew the sauna to expel the poison. I'll take the money, but I haven't given it back to you yet, including the money you used to open the hotel. "

I looked at her and said slowly, "Remember, don't mention money in front of me. Anything I do for you, no matter how much it costs, is not on my premise or on my premise that you don't have to pay for it. Do you understand? "

She looked at me, confused. "Are you alive, Lei Feng?"

I said, "No!"

"Then you're going to let him return the money in the future?" she said again.

"You don't need to worry about that." "No," I said.

She took a drag from her cigarette and laughed, "Alright, since you said so, I don't care if it's Lei Feng or not. Let him return the money, I will accept your good intentions. If you want to be Lei Feng, then I'll grant you that wish. If you plan on letting him return the money in the future, then I'll owe you one first. "

"You can think of it that way." "No," I said.

"Actually, I still can't understand why you treat me so well." "No," she said.

I stood up without a word.

"Also, I don't understand why I trust you so easily!" She stood up.

I looked at her deeply. I looked at the woman who changed Lee Shun's fate by letting him die. I looked at Xiao Xue's mother. My heart was filled with emotion and even a little melancholy.

A sentence appeared in his mind: Ask the world what love is, and call for life and death.

She was a little disturbed by my gaze.

With a deep sigh, I said to her, "I'll go first."

"Can I have your number?" she said.

I looked back at her.

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